hehe i got to thinking that despite some lousy times in my life there were really some great times too ... i think sometimes i think so hard about the bad things that the good things get pushed so far to the edges i cant see them anymore

but some good things i remember

- going to my italian grandmas house in the summertime and she had the hugest fruit and vegetable and flower gardens front and back of her house ..no square inch was wasted lol ...all the colors ..reds, blues, purples, greens, oranges, yellows .. it was like someone from technicolor came in and painted the place hehe ... and sitting watching her make hand made gnochii ... waiting waiting waiting for it to be done so we could eat it ... then she would give me and my brother both a 1$ and tell us to go buy a treat at the store and bring back the change !! haha .. yep .. good times

...Jodi, the banana eating buddhist

Heh.. cool.

daaaaaang

this thread should be elongated indefinetely

truly it should

okay, here is a happy memory of mine

i saw three deers at a beautiful forest once
they were three just loping about

they didn't have the big antler things on them
so they were probably all female

and they were so quiet
i was hiking with a friend of mine

and we were quiet and stopped walking and talking when we saw them
appear

seemingly out of the blue
they just appeared

and it just made everything seem magical

the very molecules of air around us seemed more crips, sharp, lucid, clear

we barely breathed or spoke to one another

until they finally loped away

that was a good memory

and so was going to Yosemite national forest

and seeing the King's River ( think that is what it was called... )

it was seemingly rushing rushing rushingggggg

i wuz a kid then
so that is what it seemed to me

maybe it has changed

i hope it is still rushing

but then again, everything seemed grand and big to me back then

another memory

playing in the jungle gym
hanging upside down

by my knees

then flipping upright again

like a lil gymnast

tadahhhhh!!

another memory:

birthday parties
and running around in the sprinklers cuz it was hot
and there was nothing else to do but run around in the sprinklers
on my birthday

i stepped on a bee
it stung me
but i got over it
it hurt though LOL that wasn't a happy memory but the birthday party was
i got some presents
it seemed like such a big deal back then
and now?
i only remember one present
it was a little purple pink purse that had a horse on it ( ha ha

playing tennis
at the park
not caring really who won the game
just hitting the ball
and feeling fine

riding my bike around the block
over and over
and OVER again

riding my bike up a very steep hill
and them screaming on my way down

halloween parties
telling scary ghost stories
feeling scared

feeling safe

feeling giddy

feeling happy

another happy memory

reading a book on raw foods
and realizing that moment that a golden key had been placed into my hand
and all i had to do was take the key and open the door

and i did
having my first veggie juice
drinking it and thinking it tasted deelish

making my first fruit dinner
with blended fruits and cut up fruits and feeling like " i could do this!"

happy moments
they never end

i never get tired of planning them, creating them and thinking about them