it is inevitable
that i will be carried
not away
but within

there is no escape
only a deepening

then i will be home

i will save a place for you
then we will be carried away together

no longer within
and no longer needing to escape

this is what i say
as i put down my glass of cilantro juice
and ponder how long my tresses are getting
but i shall not trim it

this is part of the vision quest
to not cut my hair

the wilderness
it is roaming
i roam with it

it is gaping
and i yawn in awe

it captures my mind
i let it capture it

it is okay with me
i am captured

so carry me

i say

carry me

the husk of this life
begs for the kernel

the kernel has been dormant
since i grew a pair of eyes

that could see
into yours

but when i closed them
i could see into you

have you ever experienced pain?
uhh

it seems unavoidable
does it?

avoid it as much as possible
by allowing it to hold you
til it seeps under your skin
flows through your blood
knocks on your marrows

let it enter

and when it strikes the core
u will die

and if u choose to live afterwards
you will live again

ever humbled
ever in awe

ever in fear
ever holding to the kernels
that turn and turn and turn in your palms

they are speaking to me
i say

they are telling me
that it is not over

i want to go away

but it tells me

stay

i want to go away

but it tells me

your soul has not completed what it came here to do

i want to go away

but it tells me

shhhhh...

we will carry you


shhhhhh....

so i stay

and look up at the sky

and i see

i wish not to see

it is too much to see

so carry me
i say

carry me

i will save a place for you

so we can both be carried away together

and within

i must go to sleep now
take a little nap

before the sounds in the cave up above my eyes
start clamoring away again

i need to sleep now
it is okay

i am being carried

oh okay

here is a quote i have

it is a saying i love very much

here it is:

" never let the odds keep you from doing what you know in your heart you were meant to do"

it is by H Jackson Brown Jr. ( I don't know who he is)


i was meant to be carried
not away
but within

then i can be carried away

like the fishes in the river
they know

like the seaweed that trespasses just by swaying

i am swaying

i trespass

i am swaying

it is good

to

be

i just decided that

i am being carried

whether i know it or not
like it or not

i am being carried

i liked it though