HI

I am FAT, BLOATED and COOKED since December I've fallen off the wagon!

I start Tomorrow!

My plan is to start with a 1 day fast then maybe 3-4 days of juice and apples.

I am a hopeless emotional eater...

pray for me!

Oh BOY>>>

I'm at work,
I'm leaving for home soon, first to the gym for a spin class
I've eaten NOTHING today
Apple juice and water...

I am freezing.

I've done 3 Master cleanses and a juice fast in the past so I know what to expect.

I just don't know if my heart is in to it.

I promised myself to fast today and eat apples tomorrow...

I have 4 pomegrates peeled at home and will eat them tonight...
so much for the 1 day fast - I just do not want them going bad


(;O)


I have a job interview Wednesday that I REALLY REALLY want - it's for guidance counselor in a high school - I am currently a high school teacher.

SO my munching is on HIGH - I am stressed!!
THis will be a good TEST!!

I promise myself to eat only the Pomegrates, I've been so BAD and COOKED and grained out the past 2 months...lemme go weigh my self right now...

hang on...
OMG OMG OMG
THAT is all the motivation I need
I am 142 pounds!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I cannot remember being this FAT!

I am usually 125-132

YIKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE TIME IS NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, It's 8pm

Came home and ate - but all fruit )
I'm good with that!

I ate my 4 pomegranets
1 plantain
4 clemintines

TBS raw honey

Camomile tea

I feel FULL
I can't believe it...

Must admit making my daughter a sunflower seed and strawberry jam breakfast pita for lunch was tempting!!

First the apple raisin pita was smelling DELISH
THEN the butter - YUM

But I overcame it.

Tomorrow I'm bringing
2 cucumbers
4 tomatoes
5 apples
to work for the day

We shall see how it goes...

Tuesday morning

I taught spinning class this morning at 6am
It's SO COLD today here in Toronto!!

NOT a good time to fast - that will come.. when the sun comes....

It's 7:45 and I already ate an apple that I shouldn't have. oh well...

I had a shot of maple syrup (i know) with cayenne pepper this morning upon awakening, along with 2 apples and some greens juiced.

I think the cayenne is a good detoxofier... any comments?

I'm drinking warm lemon water pretty much all day - is this bad for my teeth?

OK I will write later,,,,its nice to be accountable - I have a LONG day...

Taught Spin this morning
Teaching all day at school
Have to fit in a run (training for a 30k)
Have a fitness instructors meeting tonight at 7:30

BUt trust me I will make time to eat!!!



Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 01/16/2007 12:53PM by rawrnr.

HEy

ok So i just ate my cucumbers and tomatoes for lunch.
Lunch is early...11:30am

I am subbing another spin class tonight and will run tomorrow.

I am getting stressed over this interview Tomorrow...


TOo much on the go...

I am always COLD - need to warm some water and lemon juice...

I like this - keeps me aware and accountable!

5pm

I ate

1 whole honey pomello
2 plantains

Had just one but felt hungry, so had another

Off to teach spin class #2

I'm COLD!!!

10pm
Got home from spinning and fitness instructors meeting

I was hungry

1 honey pomello
1 Plantain

then I went bck in the kitchen - craving FAT
Peeled
4 walnuts
5 almonds

I felt that out of control feeling...got out of the kitchen FAST!!

I'm ok now...that was close

I have my interview tomorrow!!!

Pray for me!

dear rawrnr...i am praying for you.i read your journal and i have the same problems.when u wrote about fixing the strawberry/sunflower jam...i know.i had to fix my grandsons bacon and then later in the day they wanted choc.chip cookies.i was at my daughters house...fixing the food they eat for the little boys.so being around this old food i use to eat-made me overeat yesterday.i think i so wanted to go back to my old ways.so i am praying for u and myself too.good luck.taylor

Thank you Taylor

You know "changeing a mans diet is more difficult than changing his religion.."
Who said that again???

Had my interview this morning, went very well, don;t think I'll get it tough, BUT he said to apply again when more postings come out!!
This will be around may-june!!
I WILL!!!

I ate 3 grapefruits (heard they spped up metabolism,ya, is you wat one before each meal it's supposet to work...I'm not doing that just yet, BUT...)

3 grapefruits (juiced with pulp)
3tbs E3Live
1 platain

Came home from interview craving BREAD!!
Yummy warm raisin/apple breakfast pitas...but NO NO NO NO

I am not going to cave!!

So....
I had

1 plantain....

seems like this is the only thing stopping me from eating cooked at the moment!

Off to school...Hey Taylor,,,
I am THE emotional eater of the CENTURY!!!!!!!!!!

If I can do this I know YOU can!!
One day at a time

I promise myself at least 30 days....
then we will see...it's hard up here in Canada no sun so cold!!!

Do it!!!

WE CAN!!!

leaving now...
i want grains!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Craving - not hungry...I wantt eh feeling of fullness....

so I ate

1 large mango
1 more plantain

did the job!
Off to work before I hit my daughters cereal and almond milk!!

taught a body pump class
ran for 7k

ATE

1 cucumber
3 tomatoes
2 chayote's (YUK!) - grated it and made a salad with the above. to it I added
10 black olives ( ya, I know)
1 tbs agave nectar
balsamic vinegar (ya i know but it tasted like dirt cuz of the chayote's)

then I was craving it cooked grains - cookies, bread,

5 almonds
3 walnuts

My daughters cookies were calling my name, my husbands pasta was screaming it

1/2 a pineapple

WHo says you can't get enough calories on fruit and veg's is WRONG!!


I packed for the day tomorrow

8 kiwi's (golden)
2 navel oranges
1 pomello
3 apples

Breakfast will be

2 grapefruit juiced
1-2 tbs E3Live

oh Ya

I added some HEMP protein powder to the salad

I'm worried about losing my hair, my mom wears a wig - thin all over.

I am kinda thin but no one notices unless I point it out.

I hear that hair is all protein, I've also heard of ppl losing thier hiar all raw...

I've been dabbling raw food for about 2 years..I don;t like the state of my teeth, the gums seem to be receeding - (my parents are both over 70 and have ALL thier original teeth!! - good gums)

Must have been all the friggen dates I was binging on for months!

I don;t even buy those anymore - raw foodist JUNK FOOD!
OH YA!

wow thanks rawrnr. I love your enthousiasm. I am freeeeeeeeeeezing too.(Seattle) I can't drink enough hot tea.

DAY 4!!

HI Alicenubby, how R U?

How's you raw journey going?

Where the frig is my hat?!!

This morning I had:

2 juiced grapefruits with pulp
2tbs E3Live
Candy cane tea with stevia

I'm sitting in my office - the room is the coldest in the school!
I have 4 layers on including a vested thick windbreaker!!!

I HATE the cold!!!

Smiles

11am

I ate

Candy cane tea about an hour ago...

1 honey pomello
2 navel oranges

I am feeling full!!

It's 5pm, I'm at work just finished a Body Pump class.

I've eaten my
3 apples and
8 kiwi's

the golden kiwi was DELISH!!

I wasn't even hungry but after having one I did not want to stop!!!

BEtter eating 8 Kiwi's than 8 slices of bread!!

ON my way home, I have to meet with my running group at 7pm for a chat and a run.


I will check in later...

At home I ate
3 persimmons (sharon fruit)

I am off to my group run....

I think I am eating too much....
What do you think?

went for my 5k run

came home ate:

4 persimmons

not hungry but just want to feel full....

as long as it's raw right?

i ahve a watermelon downstairs calling my name....

Maybe I'll go have a few slices....

I binged last night at 10pm
BUT I binged on raw (minus the olives)

1 Banana
10 olives (not raw)
1 persimmon
1 cucumber
1TBS raw honey

I was feeling alone and upset about the state of my relationship...


THis morning 6:30am I ate

2 grapefruits juiced
E3Live - a large dollop
1/2 a small water melon

I was STUFFED!!

I brought some Maple/Vanilla tea with stevia and been sipping on that ...

I need to go pee.....
wodner why?....
)

I have gas...the stinky slient farts..


WHy do I have gas????

It can't be the food I ate last night can it??

3:00

today I ate

6 bananas
5-6 cups of baby greens

going to pick up my daughter...

I still have gas....
?

8pm

I ate LOTS!!

the rest of the watermelon - ALL of it!!!
IT was a medium size...

6 persimmons

4-5 cups of mixed greens
1/2 avo
2 oranges juiced
5tbs sesame seeds
2tbs agave nectar

I was just craving FAT my GOD!!
on top of it all I ate

10 shelled almonds!

I am STUFFED

We are not supposed to let ourselves get like this, but being around Italian food and cooked quinoa I had to do SOMETHING!!


Day 5 over and out!!

This morning I went for a 7k run

came home had

2 juiced grapefruits
E3Live


later about an hour

GREEN SMOOTHIE
5 bananas
6-7 c mixed baby green lettuce

I added some supplements
MSM
B vitamins
Silica
and others I can't remember

I STILL have bad gas....

WHAT THE HELL????

I went out to do some errands and found myself hungry

I ate a Lara Bar - JUNK FOOD!!

Shame on me...

I've been feling bloated ALL DAY and this will definately nake it worse
nuts = fruit NONONO

I can home and on top of it I ate
2 bananas

I am now holding my head low....

BUT HEY!!! - it's still raw!

hi rawrnr. I love those Lara bars way too much.....so much I am almost SICK of them. thanks again for all your info. inspiring(sp)

I have yet to try a Lara bar..came across two kinds yesterday but it wasn't the cherry pie that everyone loves..so I skipped trying them. I thought they were raw bars?

You are doing great..keep going.

Love,
Prism

HI ladies!

Nice to see you on my log!!

YA, Lara bars - they do shy they are raw, but with processed food, who knows...

I like the coco chocolate hands down over cherry pie!

I tell ya, I bought 2 for $3.00 and I had to use ALL MY MIGHT not to eat both!!

I did have a high calorie meal..

My daughter had home made vegan pizza, I wasn't even tempted to eat some...I CANNOT believe it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Day 6 FINITO!!!

Zucchini pasta (6 zucchini's)
Pesto sauce
pine nuts
basil
cilantro
tomatoes
garlic

Yummy, but high in fat cuz the nuts!!!!

LAter this evening I had an orange,,,the garlic aftertaste in my mouth needed something sweet!!

TA friggen lara bar is calling my name!!!

I am STILL BLOATED, you know like on eof those BLO FISH!!
Look out!!

Smiles...

11 am DAY 6!!

My bloated feeling is GONE!!!

YAY!!!

This morning I had:

3 grapefruit squeesed
big dollop of E3Live

Went out in this FREEZING MINUS 15 weather with my running group and ran hills!!
Yes the same one over and over - 12 times!!

Including a 1km warm up and cool down we ran 13.5K!!!

I took a HOT shower but still cannot get the cold out of my bones!!

I had:

4 bananas
HUGE bunch -maybe 5 c of Kale
GREEN SMOOTHIE

I ate 2 more bananas on their own after!
I added MSM, Silica, Vit B, and some others my naturopath added to my smoothie

I am just waiting for my HOT tea to cool a bit B4 drinking!!

What I really wanted was some cereal with chocolate almond milk!!!
there is some YUMY strawberry special K in teh cupboard, I opened it, and took a LONGG loving look at the box....
Then quickly closed it and told my self (lied to myself) that if I still wanted it after the smoothie I could have it...

I am FULL but I could sure fit it in....

My stomach has the elasticity of a ...condom....(I teach PE they are VERY VERY elastic!!)

But I won't cave now....day 6 of 30 right??

so Ijust took this HUGE DUMP!!!

I mean the size of a COW PATTY - actually looked like a cow patty, this has never happened:

I clogged up the toilet....
I mean, I tried to flush before I was done, cause it looked like it was a double flusher...but the first flush clogged up, so I kept pooing...
I made a literal mountain!!
Looked like a volcano - almost peeked through the top of the now, very high water...

So at the end I flushed again, hoping hte water pressure would make it go down, but nothing.....the toilet looked like it was going to run over...YIKES!!


Grossed out and behold, ...I HAD to put in the plunger and help it down!!!

LOL

What a GREAT dump!
DO you still respect me??



Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 01/21/2007 04:49PM by rawrnr.

I feel sick...

I ate about 2 hours ago the rest of that pesto with zucchini

I think I over did it....

during the day I also had a mango and a lara bar...I am craving another one....
Damb combo abombo.....nuts and dried fruit...addicting!!!!!!!!!

I made a very LARGE kale seasweed salad

2 heads of kale
sesame oil 5 tbs
sesame seeds5 tbs
arame seaweed - 2 bags
lemon
braggs

I needed the oil to message into the kale to remove some of the toughness..

i will munch on it over the next few days....probably 4-5 days

I feel like I want to vomit

this could be over what I ate
over what is happening in my relationship - falling apart, fighting
OR
over my visit with my paralyzed and VERY negative mother...

I am feeling FULL but need a fix - a lara bar would be good and distracting rihgt about now, but forget it!!!!

Tomorrow Day 7!!