OH, man....
I had a RUFFF weekend...
Drama Central!!

Screaming, cursing, fighting...even in frout of my daughter...I know, I know...

HOw damaging is that????

YIKES - I feel like a badddddd mother...

Live and learn right...
so after releasing all our anger and hate,,,(closest thing to love right..)
we decided to give it ANOTHER go...until June anyways...we are basically stuck living together till then, the house will either be sold then, or we will continue...

Our negative patterns have been with us for 14 years!! June will be 15!!
I hope wh can figure it out and make each other happy....RIght now I cna honestly say...I don't know...
(

IT was SO HARD not to eat cooked yesterday - but I DIDN"T!!
I am so proud of myself for not caving in - I just kelp telling myself that I'm doing this for me - My commitment to ME!!
I am NOT proud of how much I ate - I lost count...
I can still feel it in my stomach waiting to digest!!!!

let me try to remember my ALL DAY binge

6 bananas
3 heads of romaine
6 apples
1 bag of sun dried tomatoes
30 shelled walnuts
15 large green olives
6 zucchini (saladacco - pasta cut)
1.5c raw tomato sauce (tomatoes, sun dreid tomatoes, garlic, dates, olive oil)
2 oranges
3 tbs raw honey

I feel so FULL and bloated!! I have not eaten yet today and...I may NOT eat...we will see

I woke up late...teh friggen alarm didn't go off! I sprang out of bed at 6:20, the class I teach Body Pump is at 6:30!!!

I got ready in record time 10 minutes!!
out the door 10 min drive (ya, I broke the law!)
got there at 6:45 - very nice and understanding members - probaably swearing at me under their breadth..I know I would be!!
Had some time this morning cus the kids are not at school today, so I ran 8k on the treadmill. I could actually taste the garlic and tomatoe sauce from last night!! HOW GROSS IS THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!?


Taylor, wow , what a story......I am dreading my daughters teenage years!! SHe is so head strong already!! I was hoping (lieing) to myself that these years are the more difficult cus they need our physical and emotional presence constantly...I guess the teen years are the opposite - they are to be away from us! Hopefully she will want to hang out with her mom...I actually went to see a n numerologist in Mississauga - I know weird...but my naturopath recommended her
- believe it or not?!!
It was a great experience - but expensive...she told me how head strong my daughter was and how she will be a "handfull" in her adoloescence...
YIKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hopefull we come through it ok...

WE have actually sparated once before and I did the bar scene,,,,nothing.....

Where did you meet all these guys?
U must be HOT!
OR else you are emitting a "@#$%& me know" vibe...
You know us older women are at out peek!

So happy you both worked it out...

Now, the master cleanse..
they have a web site

[www.therawfoodsite.com]

Pretty much everything you need to know is there, I have the book, you don't need it...

lemonaid
maply syrup (raw honey)
cayenne
laxative tea
salt water flush (THAT"S FUN)

is all you need

I have bought something called Oxypowder to replace thje salt water flush SWF - I don't like it!

Check out the site - you can lose 10 pounds in 10 d ays...but you I gained it all back...the 3 times I did it...

It's a GREAT bowel cleanse though

Curezone.com also has a support forum - It's VERY active and I love it!

I will do a MC (mastercleanse) as well as some juice here and there....
Starting on the 4 or 5..probably the 5th - ou tof the house you know...

I'd LOVE some company!!

I'm in my office at work all alone and LOVIG it!LAter!

2 o'clock

On my way home soon.

havn't eaten anything an fell like there's a brick in my stomach!

it's funny though...almost as though my head is telling me I should eat becasue of the time, and my body telling me to PHLEEZE give the digestion time to catch up from yesterday...

I mentally feel that I shoudl be eating, physically my stomach is BLOATED AND FAT!!
Hey, back I am again..to where I started - even with all raw I am bloated....

Umm...what day am I on?
started on the 15...

DAY 14!!!

Weighed myself 138..still feel like a COW...

ALmost 1/2 way to 30....
I will reach 30 days on the...
YIKES on Valentines...how sweet...

Gag me!

I will start 811 no spices/overt fats/fruit and greens - LOTS of bananas!!

I am still tasting the garlic I ate last night - GROSS!!

rawrnr- have smooth move tea. i used it once and thought i was gonna have to strap the toliet to my arnse.i swore i would never drink that tea again.i got sort of scared.i could not quit going poo poo.on the 811-i went to barnes and noble to buy that book and they did not have it.they had never heard of it.sheesh!! so i will go to borders and see.i know since i am have been doing raw foods-onions just stay forever in my mouth.what is the salt water flush?i am sorry about your weekend.well-to check out that site.taylor

uh oh! i have high blood pressure and have not been having nay salt-drs. orders.do i have to do the salt flush? what is it?taylor

Hi LAdies

To learn all you need to just go check out the web site above...I cannot recall it now..but I posted it above somewhere...


The smoth move tea...I take it in the evening when I am master cleansing your supposed to do the senna tea in the evening adn the SWF at night...

Ok

I came home wasn ot hungry but ate anyway---what a BAD habbit!!

4 zucchini
wakami
sundried tomatoes
sprouted flax seeds
lemon
made a salad (kinda yukky)

green salad
mango dressing with some celery blended in (just blend a mango and celery YUM!!)
chopped up 2 bananas on top,,,

Once again I feel like a brick is in my stomach!!
who do I do this to myself?!!


There is an awesome chinese food store on Dundas - near big als - you know where the dragon wall is..
I buy produce there
mango's, persimmons, papaya by the box not organic
I buy young coconuts
plantains
they have jack fruit and durian
dragon fruit and asian pears

Great prices!!!

I love Pomello I buy there too!!

about the 811 book you have to order it from his web site..

www.foodnsport.com

thanks so much.well i think the master cleanse scares me.i looked at the website u posted and saw the salt flush.2 teapsoons of salt a day is scary.since oct.18th i have not had one grain of salt.i got rid of the high blood pressure and it was 150/100.i lost weight and no body could pry a grain of salt past these lips.i would love to loose ten more pounds quickly...but i am anyway.i Have been loosing a pound a day.man-that smooth move is some wild stuff.well-i will look up the website for the book.thanks so very much for the site.

the SWF just goes right through you - it is the same PH as our blood, so in theory the body does not absorb it..it cleans the bowels top to bottom...
I have a hard time just getting 4 glasses of water down with the salt in the am - it's NASTY - but works, a couple hours later you are peeing through your butt!!

I bought something called oxy-powder that I'll be using instead..

You can also dring lax tea morning and night...

I am not working today - kept m y daughter home from school as well..

we're going to go to the gym, then later tobagonning!!

take advantage of this snow!


I ate
3 apples

Don't even know why I ate them..I'm not hungry - just habit....
what will I listen to my body???

ate
6 bananas
6c mixed greens

Chinese market near Big Al's! thanks for that info! Now I can try a durian etc. I know there are markets dowtown but that's so much trouble with parking and crowds etc.

Enjoy your day off with your daughter.
Don't be so hard on yourself!

Later.

hey D!!

Yes on Dundas, you know where that beautiful dragon wall is - The mississauga chinese center...it's the first store on the right. Don't go on the weekend it's a zoo

Best kept secret!!

I went today bought $65.oo of FRUIT!!|(weird it's always about this price..)

Box of mangos
Box of persimmons
4 honey pomellos
6 plantains
10 oranges
12 asian pears
kiwi's
some red/yellow peppers
garlic
tomatoes
2 pineapples

They had durian (frozen) I tried it once - enough said!
They have fresh Jackfruit - yum
Jicama (kinda a potatoe you can eat raw - its ok)
Dragon fruit (buy them firm, not soft DELISH!!!
Young thai coconut I CANNOT buy these as I eat them one after the other and cannot stop!!! YUM YUM YUM

They also carry seaweed MUCH cheaper than loblaws/whole foods

None of it is organic though..I buy organic bananas by the box and organic apples at loblaws. NEVER ever buy strawberries that are not organic - you will be tempted they sell a big clear box for a dollar at times!!

U gotta go!!

I ate this afternoon..

2 more bananas
1 pomello
handful of my dehydrated tomatoes

YEs I am stuffed!



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tonight I ate
2 bananas
mixed greens
dressing - 1 mango blended with celery stick and some balsamic vinegar

OH I was bad....I was making rice for my husband - trying to be nice I have not cooked for him in forever...well..I tasted if it was ready---that lead to me eating about 3 TBS of it!!

YES it tasted good, thank GOD he just got home and can finish it off, or I'd eat more!!!

It was RED rice I bought at the chinese market....I usually just make wild rice, it was cool..actually turned the water and veggies (onion, garlic, tomatoe) red too!!!

Tomorrow's a new day....I have SO MUCH FRUIT!!!
I love it!

I will try mono eating for the next few days..will add baby greens though...

i love jimica.i eat that all the time.so crunchy and sweet.ok-good luck on your master cleanse gal.taylor

Thanks for the shopping list! I know exactly where it is, I've been there and yes it was a zoo on the weekend. I used to go to big al's I had a 95 gallon aquarium habit.
Can't wait to go and load up!

Thanks so much.

OH @#$%&!!!

I'm done---now I will start over - tomorrow...

After taasting that rice yesterday, I was like a drug addict.....could not get enough!!!
Holy rice binge!!!

Today I ate a pomello, then a pack of dried figs...
came home to a salad with banana on top...

made dinner...I GOTTA STOP MAKING DINNER!!!!!!!!!!!!
Quinoa and stuff....veggie ground chicken (YEVES) - made a stir fry with it, garlic, tomatoes, dried onion, soya sauce....just HAD To taste it.

Ya there I go again, big plate of quinoa with the stir fry on top!!

Sh%t - F%#K ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I will begin my quest again - tomorrow....Feb 1st...

I really want to start a different journal, I feel this one has been a failure...
We're not supposed to have more than one though...and who knows worse comes to worse,,,,I'll fail again and again..story of my life with this diet for the last 2 years....(

Oh well, new month, new start....

Funny thing is, after eating bowl upon bowl of rice last night and being raw for 15 days previously, it did not affect me physically at all....

WHAt to do.....give another try right....

Ok
OK

I don't know what it takes but I would have to have a gun pointing at my head not to cave if I was cooking for my family and doing heavy training in the middle of a cold Canadian winter.

I came home the other night determined to just have just one day of 100% raw and a well meaning family member had made an old favoutite baked veggie casserole, the house smelt so good when I came in out of the cold, I knew I wouldn't be able to resist. My resolve went out the window.

You have lost some weight already. I would just keep doing what you've been doing. If I don't give myself any room for backsliding the guilt distracts me from my goal.

man alive. we are toooo hard on ourselves.remember that Alliah song "try again"?

Yes it's me!!

I binged on Cooked last night ---again!!

Today, I've had an apple...

I am SO stressed about working in close quarters with a collegue who is a COWARD ASS HOLE!

It's just SO uncomfortable in this office!!!!!!!!!!

I MUST NOT let him get to me!!!

OK today I was good in the sense that I did not binge

I just get this urgency to fill this emptyness inside.....It'a from stress, it's from childhood as well i just know it..the feeling of worthiness/worthlessness...I abuse my self with food.....

I need to be kind to myself...

Today I ate
3 apples
7 bananas
4 stalks of celery
3c baby greens
1, 054 caliories

I may add on a honey pomello later.......we will see..

I went for a 9k run this afternoon - GOD it is SO COLD outside that it's the last think I really want to do....
But it's the think that keeps me from being FAT
It's my saviour really...

Oh..yes, we can be too hard on ourselves..you are doing fine. If I slip up, I do get right back to the raw foods the next day. You do it enough and it will become easier.

So, back to the raw foods..for all of us!

Love,
Prism

gal-u are something else. a fighter.you are amazing.taylor

thanx for the kind words and support...

I ate some rice AGAIN yesterday night!!
I have a spine of a ...worm!!

NO will power!

I was just making my daughter veggie dogs and came SO SO close to caving in ONCE again!

But I didn't!!
YAY

I ate
2 asian pears

Went to the gyma nd did 2 spin classes about 2 hours

Came home had 5 bananas and 5 celery sticks blended with water YUM!

rawrnr-i have been meaning to ask you-what is spinning classes-or spin classes???sorry to be so dense. i knit and crochet so i think your version my have a different meaning.taylor

HEHEHE

Hi Taylor!!

A spinning class is an hour long class to music where you are riding a bike and being instructed to go fast/slow/up/down...
I call it a heart attack!!

It's the best cardio workout IMO and perfect for cross training for running!

This morning I ate 8 rehydrated figs and poured the water into my water bottle for my 19 k run in Burlington. My group is preparing for the around the bay road race - it's -28 with the wind chill - and YES there IS a WIND CHILL to say the least - I would have turned back within the first 10 minutes,b ut my group is CRAZY!!!!
WE just kept going-----I was actually afraid I was going to frost bite my nise and lips!!

Got home and made a smoothie

8 celery stalks (supposedlyu the best sodium replacer)
3 banana's
3 asian pears

YUM!! And I hate celery!!!

while my family ate their cooked lunch - pasta, sauce....I chewed on a HEAP of tomatoes that I dehydrated myself!!

Oh boy the grains were calling my name today - AGAIN!!!!
Today (not yet anyway) I have not listened.....

I Would LOVE a breakfast pita with sunflower seed butter....

NO NO NO

I just had one yesterday for crissake!!!

sipping delish herbal tea!

Today I added to my food with:

10 sharon fruit (like persimmons)
8 zucchini (spiralized to look, texture of angel hair pasta)
tomatoe sauce (dried tomatoes, fresh tomatoes, cilantro, dates, garlic, salt)

Seems to be too spicy for me now...I have 1 more jar of it in the fridge may throw it out!

According to FITDAY.com I ate 1,912 calories and expended 2,926 ( daily activity, metabolism run)
So my restriction is
1,015

I don't get it why do I feel so friggen FULL?


I made Quinoa for my daughter tonight...ONG it took everything in me not to eat a bowlful! I am a grain addict...

Hello my name is Tori, I am a grain ADDICT!

I didn't cave, not tonight anyway...
The beat goes on...

Peace

hahaha.Good job in not caving Tori aka rawrnr. my name is Heidi and I AM AN ADDICT TOOOOOOOOOOOO...gahdang of everything especially choc.covered pretzels

hi gals-my name is Denise-hee hee.anyway-u are the exercise women! i tell u -both are something else.i had a pig out today.i walked but sort of sore.taylor

Oh SHOOT

I caved in again last night!

Ate my husbands cereal (2 bowls) with almond milk (chocolate), ate quinoa (2 cups), ate a few wraps with sunflower seed butter and jam
then came back and had another bowl of my daughters cereal...

WHy do I keep doing this!!
I mean LOOK at all the fruit I ate that day!!??

I feel like I should just give up..

I am SO bloated and gaining so much weight even with all the exercising....

I gotta take a serious look at what I am doing to myself!

STARTING OVER AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

On my way to bed,. I taught spinning thei morning at 6am, I am ZOINKED!!

ALL RAW TODAY!!

4 apples
2c carrots
3 plantains
7 sharon fruit

Cut back on calories today...make up for the abuse the last few days....

GOD give me self dicipline!!

how are you doing gal?it sounds like yesterday was good.hugs taylor