Day 1

starting now
can't wait to get into green emerald liquid groove again
key is to stay busy
that won't be too tough
i wanna fast because it has a grand way of slowwwwwing down
time (which includes my mind as well)
also, I need to get MOUNTAINS of things done
though these are the things that I personally chose to do and its fulfilling but quite overwhelming
and I feel like there are never enough hours in a day to get what i need to get done so i feel totally compelled to do this to receive guidance and ease of action
read rawnrr's post on the Secret ( in other topics)
oh yeah, and someone posted 100 things from www.curezone.com
lovvvved reading that
law of attraction: u attract whatever u think
i just simply don't care how corny that sounds or how "incomplete" that sounds
i'm gonna go for it
i'm thinking thoughts like : "wholeness" "joy", "spiritual healing" "radiance"
"funny - ness"



if u wanna send me some support that is fine and would be VERY helpful
but take heed: I won't be answering ANY questions of ANY type whatsoever (including Personal Messages, e mails etc)
its gonna be a ONE way street
focus is on myself right now
greedy me!

me: fast
me: get support
me: get something meaningful out of it

re read thomas lantern's post on "other topic" about "just like that"
and how he is trying to prove the meaning of God

intrigued me, once again
maybe its a subjective thing after all

maybe I can sort of get to the cusp of "merging with the God consciousness" like K_lee was expounding upon on the same mathematical post
and that will be proof enough for me

since Herbert Shelton says that 30 days is standard (esp. in europe)
i'll go along with the Joneses
and be 'standard"
its a nice even number, anyhow
and getting all those greens will make me feel pretty nutritionally sated, anyhow
not like the water fast ( not for me, thank you)

hope to just stick with the green juices
but maybe i'll alter it some time with fruit juices if i get bored
will post the ups and (inevitably) .... the not so "ups"
what the hey
its all the same



Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 02/20/2007 08:47AM by la_veronique.

Go La Veronique!

Do what you think is right! Everybody will love you all the more!

Smile and remember everything is going your way, at least twice.

YAY!

Ian.

oh wait...
thomas lantern's post on "Other Topic" forum was entitled "wow"
i thought the clarification was noteworthy because its an interesting topic
its one of the most oldest past times ( trying to prove the existence of God)

if ANYONE can do it, I think these raw fractal-ists are doing a sortofadecent job inching their antennaed trajectory towards this most ancient conundrum

and its also one of the most oldest past times ( once again) "merge with the God consciousness"

anyhoo...don't be giving me any flack about this or that religion
i won't be able to even START figuring ANYTHING out until i reach a still place anyhow
hence this fun lil' green trip

a half decent start

hey sodoffsocks

thanks for the cheers
it was really imaginative about what you said about looking forward to kayaking the watery water parks when all the ice caps have all melted thanks to the infamously controversial global warming ( non topic

anyhow... water water. water..
keeps me focused on drinking green tinted water

will post how the end of this first day goes
later on today

this will be a FINE day
i KNOW it

( call me psychic

Hi Veronique,
I really need to juice fast too!! I need to start slower right now though I really need to get back to it though I miss how it used to feel. I wanna write stories again lets go back to some emerald green days I really need it really

here's a fresh glass of celery parsly nettle with a wee bit of dandilions for you



Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 02/20/2007 09:17AM by singinraw.

hey singinraw

u can join me ANY time
frangiappini land calls to you

"singgggiiiiin... singggiiiin... "
emerald diaphanous creatures reach out their arms to you : "singggiiiiiin... singiiiinnn"

anyhow... i ain't gonna tell anyone to fast
but if u wanna drink some greens with me and have some adventures
i'm HERE!
join me!

Day 1 still continuing

posting here may be the only thing that keeps me sane
funny thing that happened
i was thinking about food
strangely enough
the picture of pizza popped into my head
which is VERY strange since i haven't had pizza in years
then my mind went on this dreamy little nostalgia food lane
i went to the Recipes section of this forum
and started reading some of the recipes

i was totally intrigued by taylor's cream of broccoli recipe
and also her pancake recipe even though i don't dehydrate

funny thing was, i didn't feel a BIT hungry
which is good
maybe that means that i'm commmitted

oh yeah, and read some of the diaries in the diary forum
that helped me too
people posting and persevering with their goals

i have a good feeling about this fast though
i have the feeling that it will be one of the most successful fasts that i ever embarked on

only because
some of my last fasts
were kind of ...uhh
let's just say that i've learned a LOT from them

some things that i've learned from previous fasts

1. drinking any store bought smoothies of any type is certain to bring on RAPID demise ... i remember when i did that on one of my first long fasts, thinking
hey... its still kinda liquid.. right?... WRONG.. it ended up feeling like a BRICK in my stomach and it was a shame because it seemed like those Naked Juice Green Machine smoothies ruined all the previous days of fasting. also NOOOOOO more SAMBAZA acai juices either.. both are cooked anyhow... sure, it tastes like a million bucks when i'm fasting but... hey... that's just like getting a bunch of fruit... heating them to the max and the putting them in the blender
not cool... might as well just get a bunch of fruits and vegetables and stick them in the oven then pour water on them and blend... not a pretty picture.. i'm just reminding myself

2. when the going gets tough, post it... and get it out of my system or
talk about it to a friend ( or even more fun, a total stranger heee hee)
or just stay busy

3. fasting (esp. since its just JUICE fasting) is no excuse for me to not give it my BEST in ALL areas of my life...
okay, a little confession: in the past, when i fasted, sometimes i would say to myself: hey... gimme a little slack.. i'm fasting.. so, i can let this or that slide by... but that would actually make the fast ASTRONOMICALLY MORE difficult

doing my best in the other areas, actually made my fast a LOT more easier
strange how that works
i guess my spirit knows honesty at ALL times
i can't seem to fool myself no matter WHAT ( boo hoo!)
terrible that can be , sometimes
but ultimately, okay.. its my gauge

i didn't get much sleep
not sure why
maybe i just have a lot on my mind

life is crazy
no two ways about it
hope this fast will make my internal spiritual ecology a lot more beautiful than what it is

actually, i was really REALLY yearning for that
just to FEEL at peace
like a really PROFOUND sense of peace
i really want that
like you would NOT believe
i think that is the key for me to feeling joy as well

i'm glad i'm taking a break from the foods
because i was just overdoing it on the salads, nuts.. fruit
and it was just taking up waaaaaay too much of my energy, time etc

i mean, just

1. transporting myself to procure the food ( time eater, sometimes gas eater)
2. paying for it ( its cool to save and food is like the biggest money eater aside from other basic expenses)
3. prepping it: alright this takes just a few minutes at most but still..
4. cleaning up
5. eating it
6. then, all the energy i could be used to "think" ( which i need to do a LOT of in a very specific and disciplined way)or do other creative endeavours
that energy is taken up in digesting the food... like, i can actually FEEL it
salad is a big energy expenditure ( hee hee).. its yummy and all and plenty of good greens but it takes up WAY too much of my energy units ( ya know?)
7. sometimes i think that nuts, avocadoes, fruits, even veggies , when consumed as solids are making my mind go to seed as well as my spirit

i mean... i know i read somewhere or heard at least a million times how
people only use 2 percent of their brains
WHAT? why is THAT?

alright... so i want to use 100 % of my brain and i think in doing so, it will
allow me access to a greater domain of my spirit and well.. the body always follows as usual but my goal is mainly spiritual right now because that is the engine that drives everything else

its the head honcho, so to speak

so, anyhow
i guessi got sick and tired of feeling that i was only using a small percentage of my brain even if i was on all rawfoods
and only a smitten fraction of my spirit

not sure why that was, but i know what i'm talking about
the density of some of the raw foods was kind of like "covering over" some vibrations that i would have liked to have been freed up for my personal use and adventure

oh yeah and the just eating fruit or little bits of greens here and there
yeah, that only goes sooo far

then i wanna eat more
its crazy how that works

so fasting is probably the best way to stop such insanity
and just give my body a

REST

yep
good ole rest... i mean what the heck?
why do i need any of that food to begin with?

isn't drinkin the greens enough?

so yeah
the only thing that gets in the way is emotions

my body feels just FINE
any time i do a green juice fast

anyhow, so i'll probably need support in the emotional arena
should any so called 'problems' arise

though now it seems kind of hilarious to think that problems are inevitable
i mean, what if problems are NOT inevitable ( do i sound like i have blinders to conceive that there could be no problems?)

no, i think what i'm thinking is that if this fast is bordering on 'successful'
i just may PERCEIVE any so called "problems" to be just an adventure

you know?
like "wow.. this situation i'm in is INTERESTING!.. wonder what fun i'll have exploring THIS!"

that's the point i wanna reach, dig?

so, that's what i'm doing this for

cuz , lately, i've been thinking that too many things are a PROBLEM

and what for?

a lot of babies and little kids don't think that way
they just view the same things that adults see as a PROBLEM as just pure FUN

i wanna be that way too

i remember as a kid, i used to think that just about EVERYTHING was FUN

there was no such thing as EXERCISE

it was just PLAY PLAY PLAY

EVERYTHING was intriguing to me

mannn! i must have been enlightened back when i was 2, 3 or 4 if even for just a fraction of time, just a small window in time..
was just thinking about that last night

maybe that is why i couldn't go to sleep

i was wondering when it was that i changed from thinking

wooooooo... everything is INTERESTING

to thinking that everything is a potential 'PROBLEM

wow... not cool

not saying i want to regress or anything like that but

just have a fresher outlook

okay, woow did i just write a BOOK in this post or WHAT?

anyhoo

feeling hopeful

La Veronique,
I love your enthusiasm, you are an inspiration. I have been thinking about the same thing. My daughter is getting married in a month, and it would be a good thing to do for me. I have talked to her about this for herself, as she tries diets(mainstream) and it makes her sick, she stops. To fit in her gown better, she should loose some weight, and a juice fast would give her more energy. She is addicted to coffee and cigarettes, and does not have the willpower to stop.
I really like your thoughts about how you think when you are young.....so true. It helps me relax when I use that outlook of a child, of course, then everything was taken care of by your parents, now as adults, it's on you. But it helps to step back a bit. I firmly believe that my change to more raw foods,and not eating of meat and fish has helped me be a stronger person. My family and coworkers don't understand, but I think they admire my convictions. It has helped me to be more independant, if you can relate. Thanks, Janice

La Veronique.

Good luck on your green journey. I'll come and visit you from time to time to see how you are doing.

I finished a two week green juice fast 10 days ago and it was so good.

Love, francis

you go girl.

green juice fasting is my favorite.
so clean.
oxygen straight to the brain and cns

i add a little lemon
snappy.

sometimes ginger or garlic
if i get too out there
i'll add half an apple

thinking of you La

END of day 1 ( hurrah!)


Well, this is the end of the day for me cuz I have no desire to eat anything at all whatsoever

today was quite a ride
i thought it was going to be a beautiful day and it was but it shoooorrre was roccckky

to start with, here i am , all pumped up for this fast
and i go to a presentation in the morning

and i'm a little late
so the place is PACKED

and there is this woman that is sitting next to me that is just
coughing and coughing and COUGGGGGHHHHIIIINNGGG AND COUUUUGGGGHIIIIIING AND COUUGGGGHIIIING and like she would not STOP!!

so, here i am chanting " awrriiiiggghhttt.. time to put this fast to the test.. i won't get a cold..." but it was realllllly irritating and it kinda took EVERY ounce of patience i had to not just YELL at her and say "Hey... lady!!
can you just LEAVE??"

i know.. that sounds like totaaaallly absurd but that is how i felt
i felt like saying " heeeeyyyyy... yer ruining my vibes!!"

but anyhow... i endured it.. there was not anywhere else to sit as far as i could see unless i was going to do a reconnaissance of the place from a helicopter or something

but the reaaallly NEAT- O thing was this.. it was kind of trippy

firstly, i had like almost ZERO rest ( and i sure paid for it today)
i think i had max 2 hrs of sleep ( very irresponsible)
but when i got up this morning, i felt like "yaaaay... its gonna be a different day today!"

when i got in to take a shower
i felt unbelievably GRATEFUL for the hot water, the "Kiss My Face" olive oil and honey soap, the scrubby scrubberoo thing ...

i felt grateful that i had a place to sleep, warm blankets etc.
sometimes its a real chore to make up a gratitude list
but this time i didn't even HAVE to

while i was soaping up ... all this gratitude just welled up like a mysterious font and felt kinda nice but QUITE unexpected but ... like... well... it was a gift...

i mean, i feel ashamed to admit it... but i can't remember a time in the RECENT past where i thought

1. geez, its nice to have blankets to keep me warm, clothes that keep me warm
2. soap that cleans my body and lathers up
3. towels
4. shampoo
5. hot water

and it was just a real genuine feeling
it almost made me cry in a strange sort of way
i guess it made me sensitive to people who did NOT have those things
and i really FELT for them
whereas sometimes, before, i had to SHUT myself down to NOT feel those feelings otherwise i would go insane feeling like i didn't deserve such things even though i darn well DO deserve these things ( don't matter, seems like... guilt and conscience is a funny thing when i see a person that is homeless... )

at any rate, it was kind of a humbling experience
and strange because usually if i get such scanty amount of sleep, i am IRRITABLE IRRITABLE irritttttttaaabble!! and not feeling all this deep gratitude

wow...

there were a coupla times when i almost "forgot" that i was fasting and was thinking "hey, time to get an apple or a banana or some nuts or a salad" then i would immediately "come to" and think " wait a minute! yer fasting! get yer brain back to greenland!" it was weird how "automatic" those thoughts were.. like they were somehow emblazoned in the wirings of my brain

i did feel a little bit vulnerable during those times
but felt more confident that it would be okay

i think i would make a good environmental lobbyist simply because i always seem to be 'fighting" like ... ( don't mean to sound like i'm complaining) but it seems that things that ought to be easily granted ( to me) seems like i am always having to trudge through endless reels of red tape and its darn TOUGH!

speaking to the head of this and the person that represents that just to get a piddly logistical action done that takes NOTHING out of their life but means a HUGE deal to me

good news was that while i was hashing it out over the phone with Ms. X ( that's what i'll call her) and she was saying " I'll pass on what you said to Ms. Y and then there may be a committe who will have to review the decision and that committe will then have to get the consent of department Z)... a little steamkettle kind of felt like it was going off in my head and whistling

EEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeEEEEEeeeee...
but the good thing was
the fast and the knowledge that i was doing my best ( at least on the physical level, by fasting) to attain some level of peace, i felt "protected" in some very undefinable sense

yeah, i felt pretty peeved, and yeah i felt like "sheesshh.. again? do i always have to go through a committee to be heard?" can't u just sign the darn thing and get it over with? its so SIMPLE! "

but another voice that was stronger than that said " veronique, you'll be alright... you'll be JUST fine either way.. you'll find a way either around, through , over whatever... it'll be alright.. you'll find a way or you can change directions.. either way.. its alright" and to be honest, i don't always have that feeling cuz i sometimes ( hard to admit but true) have the tendency to be a bit inflexible when i'm feeling intense and adamant about something

but it was okay
and i know that whatever the outcome
when a door closes, another will open

before, i would have a hard time internalizing that
but today, it seems easier to accept that

interestingly enough
i got a TON done today
even with 2 hrs of sleep and feeling half brain dead
i got a heck of a lot done ( in comparison to non fast days)

and got my second "wind" so to speak
right now
so... all is good

rough day today it was
but still beautiful

and for that i am grateful

gonna make some more juice in a few minutes
maybe some broccoli and celery

cleanjan:

good luck to your daughter and kicking her cig habit
and having a wedding to always cherish

frannie:

2 week green juice fast?
stunning!
i'm sure you felt that way too

fruitgirl:

i totally loved what u said about oxygen going to your brain and cns
love little reminders of how oxygen just flows their treasures throughout our system

i'm gonna get a T shirt that says "I LOVE O2"!!

I swear i am! ( someday, tee hee!)

apple and lemon and ginger to greens to make it snappy?
hee hee.. snappy that iz!

thanks for the support
i probably couldn't do this without some support
at least, it would be harder because its like having a ping pong ricocheting in my own head ( boing boingggg boinggggg)

not pretty

thanks for throwing the white hollow ball back to me
and letting me throw it back too

its more fun that way
and less stressful

looking forward to day 2

i'm happy to be alive
and feeling truly grateful
for no apparent reason at all
or maybe those reasons were always there
i just was too busy digesting apples to notice them ( heeh heeh!)

Day 2 (beginning)

I have a goal today
it is to embrace every person i meet
no, not with my arms
but with my heart
even total strangers
i will listen attentively to what they have to say
and even what they don't say
and cherish who they are

it makes me happy
really, it does
because truth be known
i'm always complaining about how hard life is
and how much i have to get done
and whine whine whine

but now that i have a REAL goal behind all the other goals
it makes EVERYthiNG i do today
have some vibrance and true meaning
i am excited about this day
especially this morning
and this moment

yeah, i feel like i'm going into battle ( not necessarily due to the fast but because i have some intense work to get done today)
but its going to be beautiful
magnificent even

because i feel grateful

i feel like there is a smile in my heart
last night after i posted my last post
i felt , like an hour afterwards
some strange sadness and hurt
and it would not go away

but i was extreeeemely tired
and had not much sleep
so i went to sleep
went out like a light
like should be
and woke up next day
feeling like a bird in a nest
and opening just one wing at a time

this moment is beautiful
because its all that i have
and its all mine
to do what i wish with it
that is true power
i feel powerful

Menu for Today:

parsley, celery
wash wash
juice juice
sip sip
laugh laugh

this is truly living

i feel scared but excited
naked but not alone

an angel is folding its immense wings around me
i can feel it

i'm being held
i'm so lucky

how did i get so lucky

i know this won't last
but i don't care
its here and now

i'll cherish it for as long as it does last

can't shake off this feeling of peace
want to know if this is real
it is it is it is
ha ha ha ha!

i feel like dancing
feel like clapping my wings in the streets
in the oceans

even if there are lands ravaged with hate
i feel like smiling
and dancing with everyone
u should know
u should know
u should know

that this is real
real
real

R
E
A
L


its the only truth i know
peace

so nice
why is it speaking to me
who called it to me?

i was asking for you
and here you are
right now

where are you?
within around about
above below

no
just
right here
are you going to stay?
will u stay with me?

Peace
i've grown enamored to it
like some jealous lover
i want it around me
at all times

but i want Peace to be with others
to touch the shoulder of others
to comfort others
to assure others

i want to share green juice with peace
but peace just looked at me and smile and said

"thanks Veronique but I am already an ocean filled with emeralds"

and i just laughed and jumped into the warm glinting waves
upon waves
upon waves

upon waaaavveess

i see a sliver of the moon
and then something on the sand

its calling to me
so i go to it
i put my ear to the mark

on the ground
and it says

sleeeepp

and so i do
and i see darkness

but the darkness holds me
it does

and now i know
that i'm complete

in this quietude
hope this lasts forever

but won't be afraid if it goes
will always be with me

fast if you want,
may it do wonders for you.
However as regards
<<since Herbert Shelton says that 30 days is standard>>
He heartily disapproved of anything but water-only fasting, and monitored people daily in his clinic, and did not do fasting "by the numbers".

I wrote a letter to a department
i am soooo proud of it
i was stewing and stewing about how i should compose it
because the outcome of their decision will have a radical impact

then this morning, i woke up
and it was like the cobwebs were cleared
and the clarity of my mission just rang through
no matter the outcome
just getting to this point where i could write them this letter
it was a big deal for me



Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 02/21/2007 05:03PM by la_veronique.

LV, I will join you for your ride in fast Greenland - for the whole time and longer if you just feel too good to stop at 30 - but I gotta start tomorrow or even Friday 'cause I have a big deal trip coming up tomorrow and don't want to focus on two things at once? Meantime, my chlorophilic thoughts are with you - keep grooving.

hey johnson!
that would be truly cool!
well, today i had a chlorophyllic beauteous concoction
i was surfing the juice site
and a cool dude ( should remember his name)
will find out soon
had a recipe that had some ginger, apples, lemon and i forget what else

but i thought i would greenify i t by making mine with a heap of broccoli and parsley and it is what i am sipping on right now
the other ingredients just give it a nice zing
it looks pretty too
and it tastes even better

i had this dream once
where an entire ocean was filled with green juice
and i was so happy just swimming
and every time i got thirsty i could just take a sip on one of the waves

ha ha ha ha

well, making this is like making my dream come true
swimming through life

feeling nice
like a new day

<<<Meantime, my chlorophilic thoughts are with you - keep grooving.>>

thanks johnson
i read a bit of your diary on the diary section
a coupla days ago

intelligent experimental spirit
u R
Greenland is where its happening
i'll be here

V

sunflower sprouts
spinich
romaine
1/2 fuji apple
ginger finger
lemon
push thru juicer with celery


ride the wave you

you make it sound soooooo good
i might have to jump in too

end of Day 2

hey fruitgirl
i ne'er tried sunflower sprout
but i might put a bit of romaine in it
like to experiment

oh yeah
funny horrid thing i did
i put wwaaaaayyyyyy too much garlic in my juice
and ooooooohhhhh mmmyyyyyyyyyyyy

my stomach hurt me, yep
dumb funny thing i did there

oh yeah

i felt hungry today
but u know what?

the funny thing is that both yesterday and today
i noticed that i was feeling good all day

until i ran into individuals that were negative
and had dark energy

then all of a sudden i felt really hunnnnngggrrrryyy

and being on this fast makes me a LOT more sensitive to it


made me feel like crying, it did
cuz it made me feel kind of bewildered
like. what the?

then all these delectable raw foods were dancing in my head
i was having these dreamy reveries of raw cashew bars coated with cacao delite
and raspberries and yeah... i kept thinking that something creamy would make this feeling go allll awwaaaay
but that would have been foolish
so, it kinda took me some willpower to not cruise down a dark road and get all nuts about it
made me realize how sensitive i really am as well
well i can't build a fortress around me
so i'm just gonna have to deal with my feelings around certain people

i felt kind of broken
weeeeeep weeeep

then i decided that i needed some support
so i was going to post about how i felt
then i saw your post and it immediately made me feel

like " i can do this!"
fruitgirl just gave me a RECIPE!
i don't know about the sunflower sprouts though
i'm too lazy to sprout sunflowers ( truth be known
but the romaine sounds novel

i bought some more organic apples
i'm gonna put some lemon and ginger like you and juicin john suggested
oh yeah, juicin john had a cool recipe in the juice section where he used
those ingredients as well

i always liked that combo
so i'm gonna use that to flavor up the greens
when i wanna make it "snappy!"

i'm feeling loads better now
think i'll wake up early tomorrow
and go for a hike
before i begin my day
will see how that goes

i feel relief that i made it through the day
it was a bit intense
maybe i should be more careful who i hang around/ talk to?
that is the lesson i learned

for tomorrow, i'm gonna do broccoli, celery, ginger, lemon, apple
b'sides, i gotta get rid of the rest of the broccoli
its still good so i'm gonna juice it

i thought of doing it tonight and putting it in the fridge for tomorrow so i could have it the rest of the day
then i felt like treating myself like a princess
by making it FRESH! tomorrow
and drinking a cup THEN saving the rest of it for the rest of the day ( ha ha.. small things.. big difference)

wow.... so glad i'm feeling calmer
just read this thing that i really resonated with

" you are never alone when you are with the Alone"
and
"come, speak in silence..."

i felt very calmed in an inexplicable way after reading that
like night and day
so beauitful

just the reverberations of those words
i'm gonna keep it
take it with me everywhere i go
tomorrow

looking forward to day 3

Day 4 going well? I should be able to jump in now and take the green fast train with you - just have to get to storage bin out in the middle of nowhere and get my back-up juicer. I've never gotten to gjf with the famous scintillating LV before, so I'm not missing my chance now.

Johnson


We can jump on the train together with Day 1
yesterday I went out with friends
for some reason, i just didn't want to explain to them that i was on the fast because, from experience, i know the questions just keep coming and coming
so i ate a salad
but i was hoping that you would be back
so i could start fresh with first day with you

so here i AM!

lesson i am learning for myself:
do NOT go out with friends if their sole intention is to dine
i will , however , go out with them if they are going to play volleyball or something like that

and if they are going to go to dinner
i'll just say "hey guys, i got things to do" and graciously bow out

anyhow grand menu for today is

Broccoli, celery ( that's what i have left in fridge still

Quote for today:

" There is more in us than we know. If we can be made to see it, perhaps, for the rest of our lives, we will be unwilling to settle for less."

Oh yeah, and who said:

" We are made of the thing of stars."

i forget but its true, stars are made of the chemical elements that we are made of

i guess that means that we are both
suns

that feels good in a giddy sort of way


i am a sun
you are a SUN!

ha ha

okay, embarking on day 1
get up on the train

its moving fast

but u can jump!!

tharrr u go

gotcha!

Well, yeah, I definitely don't feel like a sun, but perhaps a long stretch of being alone with "liquid captured sunshine" (chlorophyll) will help.

I hope your time with the friends felt worth it and as supportive to soul and health as fasting - more so, maybe - depends on yer friends. Heh. My trip I was talking about was hanging out with my true (completely unrequited) (first and only) love, which I knew would depress me too much to be fast-supportive, why I said I'd start after that.

Here's a quote for you from that book _The Fasting Path_ by that git Stephen Buhner, but I think you'd get a lot out of it/him:

"_Everything_ that happens on this journey [the fast] has meaning; _everything is a communication to you about the things you are fasting for." I am sure you can take that quote and run with it and give it such truth and meaning - I can't - I've tried - but maybe this fast, it will turn out to be true. ?? I think he's a wanker, but this book is sure filled with great fasting quotes I'll share with you and you can turn them alchemically into pure (green) gold. Johnsy

I started juice fasting yesterday (a day late for lent (plenty of fasting going on to feel the support)) And LV Im so glad you've just started. Reading your posts I can tell that you're definitely in it and knowing how much you want to do this right now is enough motivation to keep going when I can't remember why I want to do it for myself (I was smelling food tonight making sure I really let myself want it before I said no thanks). I can appreciate this feeling of momentary vulnerabilty because I know Im here as the Caregiver/Nuturer as well. It's a good feeling to be kind to yourself. I'm rooting us all on.

"If you have a goal to fast 30(40) days.........RE-FOCUS.....you actually only have one small goal.....Fast 1 day.......with pleasure and dedication."

I hope don't mind that I edited you, David Mason. Your posts always inspire me to be kind (and calm) with myself. Thank you.



Carrie



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Day 1

report: muchISIMO successful!

yyaaaaaaayyy!

today i had too much to do to even THINK about eating
so that is good
all went well
as i was scramblin around and about doing A and B and C and (the letters just keep coming!)
so, had no food reveries like i had on previous days where i was thinking of all these cool things i could eat... sometimes i do that cuz its sort of
funny in a really twisted way to do that but i didn't do it this time because that would have taken up brain space and well... it was already crowded up there anyhow

johnson

sounds like your trip was very intense
allow yourself to keep the good memories about her
and then use the not so happy memories as fuel for personal transformation, learning and self reflection ( as awful and chickensoup for the soul as that may sound like...)
nothing is every wasted
and like yer fasting path author stephn buhner said ( though maybe i'll modify it a bit)

everything "does" have a meaning
and everything does happen to communicate something to you that perhaps you will be edified by in some way ( even if its painful)

well, during the fast
its a chance to fall in love with YOURSELF

i kind of see it like this

an atom has a nucleus ( which is positive : i ain't gonna get into all the other subatomic stuff) and the outside of it has the electron that constantly orbits about it like an unrequited love that is trying to connect to its beloved nucleus

when i fast, its like the part of me that is disconnected ( due to social conditioning, external "noise" like jumbled radio frequency from the myriad of influences out there that are not "holistic" etc. ) is like the electron

the "electron" is like the part of me that interfaces with the world but when it takes in too much of the world, it can spiral out of orbit and is just 'out there" never getting back to its "center", so entranced it has been with fusing with the world and the world's pleasures and insanities and the cost is the lil electron just circles about believing that the nucleus is not a part of its own self (atom) but someone else outside of it

well, when i fast, its like that gets stripped away bit by bit
and my electron , even though it is devastated at times cuz it doesn't have its linus blankie to cushion itself from the world's radio frequency ( hard to do)
the reward is that the electron falls closer and closer to my OWN center (nucleus)

and that is where there is requited love

so the fusion with the "positive" CENTER
is significant
cuz that is where u fuse with the mysterious grandeur within
and the whisperings of the universe ( like a melon conch shell held up to yer ears)



so ya see?
u can heal from that if you are able to get your "lost" electron back "home"

anyhow,

i'll be here to pick you up when you feel low or "out of it" during fasting
like you picked me up after i ate my salad and felt a bit "crushed"
because i thought i had this thing "down"

that was cool of you to say that time with friends may be worth it
very insightful and healing

hows yer day going?

steven's fasting path book sounds real cool
i mean, just the title alone is splendochockowokoraspberry cool!
i think i'll check it out (probably next month when things simmer down a bit)

here's a glittering fine cut chalice of broccoli celery ambrosia for YOU!

hey dynamite royalty ( aha ha ha that's cool name!, ALMOST as cool as veronique (ahem!) hee hee

thanks for the reminder that its just one day at a time
yep, that's the way i like to do things

one thing at a time ( though my crazy self usually acts like it has eight arms and two pairs of legs to be in TWO places at once)

so , its good
like i said, i need to slooooowwww down
so that i can buy myself more time ( who says that can't happen?)
it can and does ... even though there is only 24 hours in a day
i've experienced where , in a day of fasting, that 24 hours seemed to extend "graciously" out to many more hours and its like time expanded so i could do what i needed to instead of always catching up to it like running after it

so dynamite royalty:

R U gonna hop onto the giant fasting peach with us?

oh yeah, did u ever read that book "James and the Giant Peach"?

a kid named james ends up in a giant peach and that peach is like a helium balloon that goes up up up into the air into the clouds into the sky

but then sharks take a bite of it and it precariously hovers close to the ocean

and i forget the rest of it

but anyhow, we can all be in a GINORMOUS PEACH! its called " GREENPEACH" ( kinda like GREENPEACE but instead of going after harpooning whalers, we go after things like negative thoughts, self doubt and get out our harpoons and harpoon those little suckers right outta our beautiful emerald ocean!

sound good ? ( hope johnson also reads this cuz i'll make him captain on the days that i wanna snooze and just kick back and relax



Johnson will be the captain of "sharkwatch"

Carrie , u can be the one that stears the giant peach

johnson: u can juice the peach

as for me, my job is to drink it!! ha ha ha




looking forward to day 2

oh yeah
i am alive
i am alive

i am alive

woooooHOOOOOOOOOOOOO

what else more could i ask for
sheeeeeshhh!

Mission of GREENPEACH ( read previous post for background information)

MISSION OF GREENPEACH

1) have FUN!
2) laugh while drinking yummy juices
3) fuse with nucleus
4) experience unconditional requited love with self and universe ( all stems from the core called DA WITHIN... ( yep, i spelt "the" correctly so doncha b giving me any flack!)
5) pick each other up when the sharks are getting at greenpeach
6) if someone falls off greenpeach, extend a hand til they can get back in again ( if they wanna)
7) enjoy life
8) remember that each one of us is alive and that is a remarkably splendid thing to be

johnson

dynamite royalty

if u wanna modify GREENPEACH, u can

i sell "modification" rights for just one ounce of produce per letter

that's right
if u wanna change it to necklace it out to 15 letters

u gotta juice me 15 ounces of delectable juices and i'll give u that right


but we can

share

johnsonman

i went online
and saw the book " The Fasting Path" by Steven Harold Buhner

Well, some things u JUST know
like I JUST know that i will be reading that book ( though in about 5 days cuz super busy til then),

i see that he is into indigenous traditions, american indian ways, and that he wrote other books on --wild plants?

so, that is really exciting
i read shelton years ago but have not read a fasting book that i was mesmerized by

i like the fact that the title is fasting "path" cuz i've been doing various fasts for years so yeah.. its like being on a "path" to continual self discovery

anyhoo

so, i looked at the amazon site that had his book
and the first quote i run into just ringggggs with me

well, actually BOTH of them do

and u can re read them again cuz its in the front of that book if u have it

so, i'm gonna post them

but i'll do so in the next post because i have to find where i wrote it

okay my friends

here are the quotes that u have been waiting for
thanks to the recommendation by johnson of this book "the fasting path"

(drum rolls can be heard feintly from a distance then increasing in reverberation and amplitude til it becomes a stampede of running buffaloes)

here it IS!!

2 quotes

" When we fight for the soul and its life, we receive as a reward, not fame, not wages, not friends, but what is already in the soul, a freshness no one can destroy."


from Robert Bly


this ones a trip!

"What the eyes are for the outer world, fasts are for the inner."

Ghandi ( he would know a thing or two about fasts, doncha think? ha ha)

yep, i don't think Ghandi fasted to improve his physique or lose weight
he did it to get a pair of "eyes" for his soul and look what he did

i'm with ghandi all the way

i need guidance
yep
that's why i'm doing

plus what Bly had to say about having a freshness of the spirit
like when i was a kid and my spirit was 'fresh" and everything was BRAND NEW
and exciting

that's where i wanna be

join me

Heyyy - Captain Johnson of S.(O.)S. Greenpeach here - approaching ocean at a steady pace - was feeling seasick until I read Veronique's posts, as if I were about to jump ship! BUT she picked me up and reminded me: the captain always goes down with his ship. Whilst they play "Nearer, my god, to thee", as on the Titanic. Well, I don't have a god, but I would love to get nearer to my nucleus - I'd just been thinking that precise thing: how uncentered I get when I go out with people and then when I got back I realized how totally not just-me I was.

Veronique, I can send you the book? Anyway, here are some quotes I UNDERLINED furiously:

"You are working with the deepest and most vulnerable parts of yourself during your fast." Yes, it really is all about being kind and gentle to oneself - and, yes, allowing oneself to have fun, cutting oneself a break, telling the critical voices to shut up - it's a profoundly do-it-for-yourself thing. That is really difficult for me.

But I was thinking all overnight "I'm here, I'm alive" and enjoying my organic cotton blanket against my skin: "As your heart becomes more flexible and your sensitivity to the fluid of communications within which you swim increases, let yourself realize that everything around you, the ground, the stones, the trees, the air, the birds, your blanket - everything - is alive, aware, conscious, intelligent, and speaking to you." Sounds great, doesn't it?

So I want to thank Ver-unique for picking me up this time - just as I read you, I was scheming to go shopping for hemp seeds and salad greens - and giving me permission to enjoy life, which I'd just been thinking I might give a whirl - and for appointing me sharkwatch captain (the trick is to give the sharks some greenage, and then you're friends with them), and, especially for Verunique because she'll dig it, here is a Stephen Walt Whitman Buhner quote, probably from Whitman's _Leaves of Grass_ poem cycle: "Be not discouraged, keep on...I swear to you there are divine things more beautiful than words can tell." Or maybe LV can tell them - anyway, waking up just now and starting this 24 hours of the journey to the center of the nucleus.

(You know, I am reading this book a lot and thinking that, anyway for me, the one-isolated-day-at-a-time thing might not have the vibe I need. It's like a journey, a process, a big tapestry - I wonder if it would help to think of it as this intense internal space-voyage commitment - on the other hand, they do say the longest journey is undertaken step by step...so that's day by day or maybe hour by hour or maybe minute by minute...

Later, greenspace-cadets

Day 2 ( start of)

Captain Johnson! Reporting to GREENPEACH!

<<As your heart becomes more flexible and your sensitivity to the fluid of communications within which you swim increases, let yourself realize that everything around you, the ground, the stones, the trees, the air, the birds, your blanket - everything - is alive, aware, conscious, intelligent, and speaking to you." Sounds great, doesn't it? >>

AYE AYE!! El Capitan!


Buhnsen took them word rigggghttt outta my right atrium ( whooooosSSSSSHHH!)
it doesn't only 'SOUND' great.. it simply IS.. that's right

it IZZ IZZ
IZZZZZZZZZ...

SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.sssssssssss

yep, i agree so true
no separation from me and them boulders and winged creatures
like no difference between the fish and the ocean they swim in
they are one
if the fish tried to separate themselves from the ocean
what would happen?

that's right
no good



<<I was scheming to go shopping for hemp seeds and salad greens - and giving me permission to enjoy life, which I'd just been thinking I might give a whirl>>

i'll tell ye what... we're already 15000 meters up in the air
this giant GREENPEACH likes salad greens as well but its really "sensitive" so it can imbibe the greens through osmosis

we GOTTA help it out
so, let's juice some of them greens
and feed it to the GREENPEACH ( its just like us... its got semipermeable membrane and it gots some cells and it gots some other thingamagishishness that needs emeraldoceanica to thrive)

that's what it needs for fuel
otherwise it'll start to sink
and the sharks are looking at the juicy peach

ya know?

let's feed the hemp seeds
to them hungry sharks
they are growwwwwlingggg

whooooftttttttt... ( hear that sound?)

i threw them seeds into the growling chambers of their incisornormous teeth

and now they are happy

totally can relate to the feeling of abandoning ship
but not today !
and not yesterday

so far, so good actually
but been down that path before
but that was PRIOR to GREENPEACH
its different now

when you're so up
in the air
touching the clouds just about
its hard to wanna go back down to the tierra that is on fire anyhow

oh yeah, just read how a big sinkhole swallowed up two siblings and also lots of houses in guatemala . was in the news this morning ( well, at least on my computer)

made me feel bad
so, u see? its not safe down there
there are sinkholes

stay up here
no sinkholes

that simple

Le Menu for GREENPEACH EXPEDITION 2007

Saturday:
i still have broccoli and celery to do today
wanna get rid of all of it before i go for the dandelion greens
that is next on my list

dandelion greens are one of my faves

<<Be not discouraged, keep on...I swear to you there are divine things more beautiful than words can tell." >>

If a man is going to swear, I guess its okay to swear like Walt (er) Whitmanmeister

there certainly are divine things more than words can tell...
and we are gonna FIND OUT!! right??

oh, my... what do i DETECT out there? ( looking through my hemp made stethoscope) wow... that is quite a spectacular gyre that is swirling about in the sea

something's up

let's get closer to the storm to see what it is

whaddya see captain?