the coughing is sucking big time .. im coughing so hard im losing bladder control lol

lol ok i know htats too much info but everytime i cough really hard im leavin a liddle piddle lol

haha im so embarrassed saying this i cant beleive but i know here we talk about all the weird nd wonderfull stuff we go thru an hell ..

im leavin puddles lol =p

...Jodi, the banana eating buddhist

Well, dear, just think of it as getting rid of stuff from both ends at the same time! Does this girl know how to detox or what?! ))))))))))

elakti

lol ima pro lol

...Jodi, the banana eating buddhist

hey girl...well at least we aren't going through it alone..and don't worry..i am having detox on both ends as well..i mentioned a small bit of it in my journal...extra mucus and fluids flying out of my body haha..and i gotta stay on top of it and keep things fresh you know ......haha oh well all part of the detox i guess...but it is weird...but i have to admit it is still better then my cycle that is probably going to be here in a week or 2...so oh well...i don't know haha
take care and keep up the wonderful attitude about the detox..and know i am in it too!!
love ya
sach
xoxoxoxox

Much peace and love!!!
EarthAngel
Xoxo

hhehe EA i hear ya .. not just both ends ... ALL ends and now my ears are both plugged up i can hardly hear a thing

omg .. im deaf , leaking, gasping , oozin lol .. what a picture of health this week


oiiiiiiii still cant breathe very well an my chest neck and upper back are getting sore from all the dry heaving

if
i
could
just

cough up a little something id feel so relieved

the naturapath i saw 4 years ago wheni had a bad bout of bronchittis (3 rounds of antibiotics did nothing )

he put me on 1 week dose of selinium and vitamin E ... it cleared right up after that

this is starting to feel the same

will give it a few more days lol

in the meantime i need a small raft now for the puddles lol

ahoy ! =D

...Jodi, the banana eating buddhist

hey there...well sorry it is getting worse..your body is cleansing
take care
love earthangel
oxoxoxoxo

Much peace and love!!!
EarthAngel
Xoxo

Well heres an update to blow all updates .. the other day i found out my boyfriend has been spending time at home online flirting with an old friend of his from highschool

i am hurt deeply to the core... i love him so much but i dont know if i can continue to have a relationship with somebody that disrespected me so much ..maybe im over reacting

you know what they say though .. its not the first time ...its just the first time theyve been ccaught

here is a transcript between him and the other girl (god i feel like im back in high school) caution its just like a trainwreck ..you dont want to see it but you cant help it. i keep reading over and over and over again . im so hurt and upset right now .. shitty is we live together at the moment and i dont know what the hell to do

Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 8:51:33 AM): hi there
mike y (8/9/2007 8:52:00 AM): hi whats up sorry i didn t reconize u at the funeral
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 8:52:10 AM): its ok
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 8:52:16 AM): it was a difficult day
mike y (8/9/2007 8:52:21 AM): was a tough day for all
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 8:52:23 AM): i recognized u tho
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 8:52:26 AM): oh yes
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 8:52:29 AM): i was in shock
mike y (8/9/2007 8:52:33 AM): why?
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 8:52:59 AM): bcuz thast should not have happened
mike y (8/9/2007 8:53:29 AM): what shouldnt of happened
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 8:53:36 AM): r u tired lol
mike y (8/9/2007 8:53:48 AM): no
mike y (8/9/2007 8:53:53 AM): am good
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 8:54:20 AM): wat happened to barry
mike y (8/9/2007 8:54:29 AM): yes it was sad
mike y (8/9/2007 8:54:42 AM): can t change it though
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 8:55:10 AM): i know
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 8:55:13 AM): anyways
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 8:55:16 AM): wats new with u
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 8:55:23 AM): its been such a very long time
mike y (8/9/2007 8:56:03 AM): not much livin in hatzic working as a consultant for a constution co
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 8:56:16 AM): oh yea right on
mike y (8/9/2007 8:56:19 AM): it has been a while
mike y (8/9/2007 8:56:27 AM): where r u?
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 8:56:55 AM): abbotsford
mike y (8/9/2007 8:57:28 AM): really not for u married?kids?
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 8:58:11 AM): seperated now, have been foir 4 years, had a bf but we jus seperated a few days ago and yes i have kids and wat about u
mike y (8/9/2007 8:58:50 AM): no kids not married have gf but shes pissed at me right now
mike y (8/9/2007 8:58:59 AM): u look good
mike y (8/9/2007 9:00:18 AM): u there?
mike y (8/9/2007 9:04:34 AM): sorry got cut off
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:04:41 AM): oh
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:04:42 AM): ok
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:04:50 AM): so do u have a cell and do u text?
mike y (8/9/2007 9:05:02 AM): lyes i do
mike y (8/9/2007 9:05:06 AM): yess
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:05:22 AM): well i will give u ine and u can text me if u wish ok 6047689766
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:05:34 AM): i have unlimited texting
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:05:38 AM): on mine
mike y (8/9/2007 9:05:41 AM): mmmm sounds good
mike y (8/9/2007 9:05:53 AM): u look good
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:05:54 AM): do u have unlimited texting
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:06:00 AM): thank you so much
mike y (8/9/2007 9:06:03 AM): yes
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:06:16 AM): ok sounds great
mike y (8/9/2007 9:06:33 AM): what r u up to today
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:06:50 AM): i am giong for lunch and thats about it for today
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:06:52 AM): and u
mike y (8/9/2007 9:07:31 AM): go a bit of work to finish up if my boss ever calls lol
mike y (8/9/2007 9:07:39 AM): got
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:07:41 AM): oh yea
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:07:42 AM): well
mike y (8/9/2007 9:08:02 AM): where in abby ru
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:08:16 AM): i have 3 kids of my own all girls, my oldest was with me at the funeral she is 11 and her name is cynthia she was either with stacy or gordie that day
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:08:36 AM): and my other 2 r suzy is 8 and nakeisha is 3 1/2
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:08:43 AM): past the airport
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:08:50 AM): and i have foster kids as well
mike y (8/9/2007 9:08:52 AM): oh wow just a baby
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:09:01 AM): she's the best
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:09:08 AM): i love her to pieces
mike y (8/9/2007 9:09:13 AM): i bet
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:09:21 AM): i seperated from my husband wen i was pregnant with her
mike y (8/9/2007 9:09:28 AM): glad u found me
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:09:47 AM): yea
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:09:50 AM): same
mike y (8/9/2007 9:10:27 AM): what do u do for fun
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:11:11 AM): i like to go out for dinner, movies, drinks, love to go out dancing, play mini golf u know fun things lol and u
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:11:40 AM): i wasnt sure if u would remember me lol
mike y (8/9/2007 9:12:23 AM): lots of campin and boatin
mike y (8/9/2007 9:12:37 AM): of course i remembert u
mike y (8/9/2007 9:12:52 AM): how counld i forget
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:12:58 AM): awww really
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:13:04 AM): i like camping as well
mike y (8/9/2007 9:13:05 AM): yes
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:13:06 AM): but
mike y (8/9/2007 9:13:08 AM): s
mike y (8/9/2007 9:13:21 AM): but what?
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:13:32 AM): i cant do much of it considering 2 of my girls have asthma and the fires get to them and make them sick
mike y (8/9/2007 9:13:52 AM): thats no good
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:13:55 AM): i know
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:13:57 AM): it sucks
mike y (8/9/2007 9:14:27 AM): thats a sad thing asthma is a bad on 4 kids
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:14:35 AM): yes it is
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:14:54 AM): wat do u mean how could u have forgotten? lol (blush)
mike y (8/9/2007 9:15:02 AM): lol
mike y (8/9/2007 9:15:31 AM): could u lol
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:15:55 AM): could i forget me , yes . . . lol
mike y (8/9/2007 9:16:04 AM): ok
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:16:49 AM): lol
mike y (8/9/2007 9:17:14 AM): well then whats on your mind
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:17:20 AM): hahahaha
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:17:28 AM): that could b a scary question u know
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:17:30 AM): lmao
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:17:34 AM): jk
mike y (8/9/2007 9:17:45 AM): plz tell............
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:17:52 AM): ummm no
mike y (8/9/2007 9:17:56 AM): k
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:18:00 AM): (blushing) shy hehehehe
mike y (8/9/2007 9:18:01 AM): lol
mike y (8/9/2007 9:18:30 AM): we all can be
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:18:45 AM): well yea its been awhile
mike y (8/9/2007 9:19:12 AM): well i 'm still here
mike y (8/9/2007 9:20:10 AM): u look good
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:20:17 AM): thank you
mike y (8/9/2007 9:20:18 AM): i know i said that
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:20:20 AM):
mike y (8/9/2007 9:20:23 AM): lol
mike y (8/9/2007 9:21:02 AM): gotta run soon but not yet
mike y (8/9/2007 9:21:14 AM): that work thing
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:21:41 AM): yea i know
mike y (8/9/2007 9:21:54 AM): whats other sites do u go one
mike y (8/9/2007 9:21:56 AM): on
mike y (8/9/2007 9:21:58 AM): lol
mike y (8/9/2007 9:31:02 AM): hi am back sorry
mike y (8/9/2007 9:31:10 AM): where were we
mike y (8/9/2007 9:31:23 AM): dam cpu
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:31:48 AM): i am here
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:31:53 AM): i dont know lol
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:31:58 AM): being shy
mike y (8/9/2007 9:32:02 AM): oh well sorry
mike y (8/9/2007 9:32:09 AM): why
mike y (8/9/2007 9:32:16 AM): dont be shy
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:32:22 AM): i know
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:32:26 AM): but its been so long lol
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:32:34 AM): and thats jus who i am i guess lol
mike y (8/9/2007 9:32:44 AM): whats on ur mind whats up[
mike y (8/9/2007 9:33:57 AM): u there
mike y (8/9/2007 9:34:37 AM): didi lose u?
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:34:53 AM): no i am here
mike y (8/9/2007 9:35:43 AM): hmmmmm
mike y (8/9/2007 9:36:59 AM): did i get booted again
mike y (8/9/2007 9:37:31 AM): i must have
mike y (8/9/2007 9:37:43 AM): ok
mike y (8/9/2007 9:37:48 AM): try again
mike y (8/9/2007 9:38:19 AM): u there
mike y (8/9/2007 9:38:41 AM): i gotta run
mike y (8/9/2007 9:39:48 AM): u there
mike y (8/9/2007 9:40:51 AM): am here
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:41:31 AM): never mind lol omg
mike y (8/9/2007 9:42:12 AM): nevermind what?
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:42:21 AM): the question i was gonna ask u
mike y (8/9/2007 9:42:30 AM): go ahead
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:42:43 AM): ok then i will hide under my desk lmao
mike y (8/9/2007 9:43:05 AM): just ask dont b shy k
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:43:06 AM): so did u ever think about me between the last time we saw each other and now? omg why ask lol
mike y (8/9/2007 9:43:31 AM): yes i have and u
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:44:05 AM): yes actually and i have looked u up in the phone book and yea
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:44:07 AM): hahaha
mike y (8/9/2007 9:44:38 AM): cool
mike y (8/9/2007 9:44:54 AM): what else
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:45:13 AM): wats going through ur head right now
mike y (8/9/2007 9:45:24 AM): lol
mike y (8/9/2007 9:45:33 AM): u really wanna know
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:49:06 AM):
Gloria Williams (8/9/2007 9:53:41 AM): <ding>

then a few days later...

mike y (8/13/2007 1:43:48 PM): u there
mike y (8/13/2007 1:44:26 PM): hello
mike y (8/13/2007 1:45:58 PM): hello
mike y (8/13/2007 1:48:24 PM): hi
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 1:48:32 PM): hi
mike y (8/13/2007 1:49:12 PM): my internet went down
mike y (8/13/2007 1:49:22 PM): still not right
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 1:49:38 PM): u there
mike y (8/13/2007 1:49:45 PM): yes
mike y (8/13/2007 1:50:09 PM): how r u
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 1:50:33 PM): excellent
mike y (8/13/2007 1:50:34 PM): is this workin
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 1:50:40 PM): yes
mike y (8/13/2007 1:50:40 PM): good lol
mike y (8/13/2007 1:51:28 PM): whats that
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 1:51:47 PM): i buzzed u lol
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 1:51:49 PM): so wats up
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 1:51:53 PM): u never texted me
mike y (8/13/2007 1:51:54 PM): me lol
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 1:52:18 PM): well????
mike y (8/13/2007 1:52:36 PM): can i be on invisible and still chat to u
mike y (8/13/2007 1:52:45 PM): i lost number
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 1:52:58 PM): 6047689766
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 1:53:03 PM): dont lose it now lol
mike y (8/13/2007 1:53:07 PM): got it now
mike y (8/13/2007 1:53:59 PM): so ..................whats up
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 1:54:06 PM): single and loving it
mike y (8/13/2007 1:54:13 PM): good
mike y (8/13/2007 1:54:41 PM): havin fun lol
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 1:55:03 PM): hell yea
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 1:55:08 PM): i jus got back from vacation
mike y (8/13/2007 1:55:11 PM): like????
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 1:55:18 PM): on a private island it was gorgeous
mike y (8/13/2007 1:55:39 PM): nice
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 1:55:58 PM): oh yea
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 1:56:05 PM): stayed in a guest house
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 1:56:08 PM): and wow
mike y (8/13/2007 1:57:08 PM): whats up today
mike y (8/13/2007 1:57:54 PM): u there
mike y (8/13/2007 1:58:27 PM): helllo
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 1:58:27 PM): yes
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 1:58:28 PM): sorry
mike y (8/13/2007 1:58:34 PM): u busy?
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 1:58:35 PM): talking here
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 1:58:38 PM): lol
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 1:58:40 PM): having fun
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 1:58:44 PM): forgot wat that was like
mike y (8/13/2007 1:59:03 PM): thats great
mike y (8/13/2007 1:59:28 PM): r u busy?
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 1:59:58 PM): no
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:00:01 PM): jus hain fun
mike y (8/13/2007 2:00:24 PM): what kind of fun?
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:00:30 PM): laughing joking fun
mike y (8/13/2007 2:00:35 PM): lol
mike y (8/13/2007 2:00:50 PM): u have comany
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:00:55 PM): no kids
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:00:56 PM): lol
mike y (8/13/2007 2:01:10 PM): really 4 how long
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:01:43 PM): forever
mike y (8/13/2007 2:01:50 PM): huh?
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:01:58 PM): i meant no company i have the kids here silly lol
mike y (8/13/2007 2:02:31 PM): o ok?
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:03:05 PM): yea
mike y (8/13/2007 2:03:23 PM): so what ya doin
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:03:40 PM): chattin and laughing
mike y (8/13/2007 2:04:33 PM): so what made u look me up
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:04:51 PM): i always did lol
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:04:58 PM): and had ur number
mike y (8/13/2007 2:05:02 PM): what do u mean
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:05:03 PM): jus too chicken to phone
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:05:04 PM): lol
mike y (8/13/2007 2:05:34 PM): what got u to contact me
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:05:42 PM): wat do u mean
mike y (8/13/2007 2:05:59 PM): what made u find me
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:07:12 PM): i have always looked for u omg i cant believe i jus told u that
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:07:16 PM): in the phone book
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:07:19 PM): 411
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:07:21 PM): u know lol
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:07:36 PM): jus to know wat u been up to and yea was always to chicken to call u
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:07:40 PM): in case u didnt remember me
mike y (8/13/2007 2:07:55 PM): oh i remember u well
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:08:20 PM): wat do u rememeber mike?
mike y (8/13/2007 2:08:32 PM): i always have liked u
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:08:40 PM): really
mike y (8/13/2007 2:08:47 PM): yes
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:09:02 PM): tell me wat u remember?
mike y (8/13/2007 2:09:19 PM): u first lol
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:09:25 PM): no way u
mike y (8/13/2007 2:09:45 PM): im sure its the same thing
mike y (8/13/2007 2:09:48 PM): lol
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:10:14 PM): tell me!
mike y (8/13/2007 2:10:46 PM): remember at glorias house when u fooled around
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:10:55 PM): lol yes
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:11:02 PM): thats wat i think about lol
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:11:16 PM): tell me wat u remember about that time
mike y (8/13/2007 2:11:32 PM): mmmmmmmm me to wish it had gone futher
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:12:00 PM): really
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:12:02 PM): hmmm
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:12:09 PM): ur with someone now arent u?
mike y (8/13/2007 2:12:21 PM): yes
mike y (8/13/2007 2:12:27 PM): not going well
mike y (8/13/2007 2:13:33 PM): what do u remember
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:13:50 PM): that same day
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:13:51 PM): lol
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:13:54 PM): wat made us stop
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:13:58 PM): i forget that lol
mike y (8/13/2007 2:14:30 PM): i think it was a bad time for u if u know what i mean
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:14:48 PM): oh gotcha
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:15:00 PM): wat do u think would have happened if it went further
mike y (8/13/2007 2:15:27 PM): not sure but would of been fun
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:16:05 PM): hell yea
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:16:06 PM): lol
mike y (8/13/2007 2:16:35 PM): would love to c more pics of u ur very pretty
mike y (8/13/2007 2:17:40 PM): i remember playin with ur breasts
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:18:08 PM): they r much bigger now lmao
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:18:08 PM): dd
mike y (8/13/2007 2:18:16 PM): mmmmmm nice
mike y (8/13/2007 2:18:51 PM): can i c more pics of u?
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:20:25 PM): i dont have many on here
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:20:28 PM): they on my msn
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:20:49 PM): but trust me huney u will love em heheheheheh
mike y (8/13/2007 2:21:36 PM): how can i c them
mike y (8/13/2007 2:22:02 PM): i bet i would
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:22:12 PM): how about u jus c me lol
mike y (8/13/2007 2:22:33 PM): mmmmmmmmm would love that
mike y (8/13/2007 2:22:52 PM): but would also love to c your pics
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:23:13 PM): msn huney
mike y (8/13/2007 2:23:24 PM): dont have that
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:23:32 PM): thats where they
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:23:32 PM): r
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:23:38 PM): until i download them here
mike y (8/13/2007 2:23:44 PM): how do i get that
mike y (8/13/2007 2:24:02 PM): i have pics to
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:25:03 PM): downlaod msn
mike y (8/13/2007 2:25:17 PM): how long dose that take
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:25:57 PM): not long
mike y (8/13/2007 2:26:05 PM): k 1 sec k
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:26:10 PM): well i have to run
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:26:20 PM): been sitting here to long lol got nothing done today
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:26:25 PM): was suppose to b a go go go day
mike y (8/13/2007 2:26:38 PM): dont go would love to talk more
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:26:44 PM): and i am sitting here driking as vodka chocolate mudshake
mike y (8/13/2007 2:26:55 PM): can i call u?
mike y (8/13/2007 2:27:01 PM): beer here
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:27:02 PM): if u want lol
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:27:04 PM): really
mike y (8/13/2007 2:27:08 PM): yes
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:27:19 PM): i dont like beer lol
mike y (8/13/2007 2:27:22 PM): havin fun talkin with u
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:27:31 PM): i like coolers, rum and coke, and vodka mudshakes
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:27:32 PM): lol
mike y (8/13/2007 2:27:44 PM): me to
mike y (8/13/2007 2:27:45 PM): lol
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:28:12 PM): ok gotta go
mike y (8/13/2007 2:28:25 PM): do u have to buy msn dont go
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:28:54 PM): no u dont have to
mike y (8/13/2007 2:29:13 PM): hmmmm how do i do it
mike y (8/13/2007 2:29:27 PM): u know u got me horny
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:29:36 PM): omg
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:29:37 PM): really
mike y (8/13/2007 2:29:48 PM): is that bad
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:30:41 PM): no
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:30:43 PM): not at all
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:30:44 PM): lol
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:30:48 PM): only if u think it is
mike y (8/13/2007 2:30:49 PM): how bout u?
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:30:59 PM): yea
mike y (8/13/2007 2:31:08 PM): can i call
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:31:20 PM): in a bit
mike y (8/13/2007 2:31:44 PM): i get my msn to
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:32:17 PM): wat
mike y (8/13/2007 2:32:41 PM): i gonna get msn i what to c
mike y (8/13/2007 2:32:47 PM): im
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:33:05 PM): wen i get back ok
mike y (8/13/2007 2:33:29 PM): how long u gonna be i have some stuff i have to do later
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:33:43 PM): call me later
mike y (8/13/2007 2:33:49 PM): when?
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:33:56 PM): half hour
mike y (8/13/2007 2:34:01 PM): sure
mike y (8/13/2007 2:34:05 PM): bye
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:34:17 PM): ok later
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:34:18 PM): hey
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:34:22 PM): never say bye
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:34:40 PM): u never know if it will b bye forever say later
mike y (8/13/2007 2:34:48 PM): later sweet
Gloria Williams (8/13/2007 2:35:22 PM): later

and today this is my response to the both of them

Dear Michael and Gloria,

I am writing this to let you both know how horrible you have made me feel. I know Michael seemed to sleep .. im sure Gloria you did too… well at least someone did last night because I couldn’t

When you are in a committed relationship, why would you think its permissible to flirt with anyone but me. Not only are you putting yourself into a vulnerable situation , fooling yourself into thinking NOTHING is going to happen, but you have played with my emotions, and your own , AND Gloria’s.. How does that make you feel Gloria , that someone you evidently have feelings for wants nothing more to do with you.. or maybe he does. Have you ever been betrayed? If you have maybe you should revisit those horrible feelings and put yourself in my shoes because that is how I feel right now. Betrayed by someone I love and betrayed by someone I don’t even know who has very little consideration for other peoples relationships.

You asked the all important question .. are you with someone right now .. and Michael told you YES .. but things aren’t going well… hey it happens all relationships have their ups and downs . THAT should have been your opportunity to say hey that’s cool .. give me a call sometime if things don’t work out. END of conversation. But no you have to tell him about your enormous breasts and your desires and wishes and how you think he should come see you in person if he really wants to see them . Michael doesn’t have his own car .. maybe he should use my car to come see you? If you don’t mind ..maybe you could shoot him a couple of dollars for gas .. as you see he really isn’t working full time at the moment despite what he says. No .. he is spending time at home flirting with other people while I’m at work worrying about how the bills are going to get paid. Nice.

Michael you have put me into a place of deep pain by tearing my heart away from me and destroying my trust in you.. Without trust what else is there .. we may as well be roommates.

You are both cruel and inhuman to have so little compassion or feelings for me , the *other* person in this relationship, to be so insensitive to even consider doing something like this to me. Flirting and being sexual in your attitude/words to anyone outside of our relationship is defiling the agreement between us. By blatantly flirting with someone you know is in a relationship you are guilty of trespassing. Gloria you have no business flirting with someone else’s spouse . How would it make you feel if you were in my shoes ?

When two people get together they make the commitment to honor, respect and cherish each other . How is flirting with someone else living up to that commitment at all? All I can tell you is that this has hurt me to the core of my being. Everything that I thought that was is not longer IS. Being compassionate separates us from the other animals of this world .. being cruel to another human being is not compassionate at all.
At the moment all I can see are two people , Michael and Gloria who care nothing about anybody but yourselves, and you don’t care who you hurt in the process, THAT’S what you decided when you decide to flirt with someone else, whether its on the internet or in person .. .its still giving yourself emotionally to someone else. Just because its on the internet doesn’t mean that all the Integrity is removed from your actions. Integrity is who you are, and what you do , even when nobody else is looking and flirting outside our relationship screams against all that is integral . it says you are SELF CENTERED and YOU DON’T CARE and YOU DON’T CARE WHO YOU HURT IN THE PROCESS. WHAT YOU WANT IS WHAT YOU WANT TO HELL WITH ANYONE ELSE.

The security I felt in our relationship is gone. The trust I felt in our relationship is gone. Maybe now is a good time for you to persue each other because to hell with me .. what does it matter now … it didn’t before did it? There is nothing harmless in deceiving someone else, you have both involved yourselves In betraying me as you both know there was a relationship involved. Sexual energy should be reserved for the person you love, im guessing the TWO of you both need to learn that still in your relationships. Flirting is a sign of interest and intention. . Words have meaning . Its not funny , clever, attractive in fact its appalling and I sincerely hope you both read these words and feel how deeply it cuts me to the core to say them.

I hope you both feel ashamed at what you have done. I know I feel ashamed first for myself for believing that something like this could happen in the first place, and secondly ashamed for the both of you for having so little respect for the sanctity of a relationship. I would have thought the both of you pushing 40 would have the maturity to know the difference between right and wrong but evidently you don’t.

I’m sorry Michael I can forgive you maybe .. and maybe forget , and Gloria im sorry that now you can never be a part of our friendship circle because you cant respect the boundaries of someone else’s relationship. Too bad, Michael told me how all the people he has been re-meeting on facebook are such nice people, too bad that you and he have taken sucha nice thing as Facebook and turned it into something dirty and despicable.

Maybe next time you two do something like this … think of the others you are about to hurt and not your selfish selves. I am so sorry to have to write something like this, but how did either of you give me any choice. If you dont want to be in a relationship michael .. then dont be, and Gloria if you can't control yourself perhaps you seek out whats truly wrong with your own life that you have to destroy someone elses.

Jodi

...Jodi, the banana eating buddhist

im so sorry everyone for airing my dirty laundry but i just want all this out of my head and heart and stomach

...Jodi, the banana eating buddhist

I am so sorry, Jodi. You are so kind and compassionate to others and to have this happen to you, it must really hurt...

thank you Karennd , now on day 3 negotiations with my guy .. im feeling better and he seems to understand that things arent as innocent as he thought ..intent is intent ..weather anything happened or not

i guess we will see what happens hehe

*sigh*

...Jodi, the banana eating buddhist

Well I just read your log for the first time. Had no idea you had been through so much....so sad.

So how are things for you and Mike the 11th? (so many mikes in your life!)

The dialog between them sounded like two people needing assurance of their options and attractiveness.........she esp. pushed for reassurance. Since it's not my guy, I can be more objective - were you just feeling angry at him when he said his gf was pissed and he was just looking for a comforting voice? In other words, was it a situational things as opposed to a usual thing for him? Is it possible he feels threatened by some of the guys you know/work with/ etc? Cuz this is absolutely classic behaviour for people who feel left out or threatened. I've done it myself and I've seen lots of people do it.

Everyone feels threatened at times, but people don't usually feel secure enough to ask for affection when they need it. So they do stuff like this. Most ppl don't even realize how they're feeling and how they're reacting to those feelings. And that can bring a reasonably happy couple to the end of their relationship!

So Jodi,,,, how's it going?

hi aqua things are going much better ... i agree with all the above i think they were both looking for something ... comfort .. etc ...

thing is this has happened to me before (with someone else notta mike lol)annd i just looked the other way/ignored and it turned into full blown cheating and Michael knew this and swore up an down he would never do anything like that and then does .. so i guess i was just really hurt

trust is a huge thing to me .. if i cant trust someone i really see no reason to be with them .. honestly single life is much easier for me .. albeit lonlier but it hurts less sometimes

lol yesterday he couldnt understand why i was getting so bent over choppy legs and rude people .. and really i dont see the internet as being just some thing we type on .. i genuinely care for people here and other places and geniunely get mad at people too sometimes ... this detatchement some people have that its *only the internet* doesnt make sense to me ..that was his first excuse ..its only the internet , its not like i went there and did anything .. OMG ! the INTENTION is there you are sharing things with someone else !!

lol

maybe we jst seee things differently of course we do

but things are much better *hugs* thank you for asking and todays anoter stormy day .. buts its a new day nonethelesss

...Jodi, the banana eating buddhist

I just realized that I made a mistake about the kind of cancer you had. I thought you had breast cancer, which is why I thought you'd make a good source of info on it and raw. Sorry, I don't know how I made that mistake - I must have skimmed or remembered wrong. Hmmm...

Well it's good to know you're all better.....but did you finish your raw recovery story ?

no not yet lol .. another bad habit i have is not finishign things i start lol !!!

my mom and sister both hvve had breast cancer so you may have saw me talk about it on the forum its a a scarey reality for me ..after all cancers are caused by our own fault right ?

...Jodi, the banana eating buddhist

Hee hee. So I've been told.

i just read your post...wow. it's horrible that anyone has to go through so much, but i just wanted to say that you aren't alone. i certainly feel less alone now that i have read that. i just re-joined this forum and your story is familiar to me...family stuff, eating disorders, health problems...seeing you here is an inspiration! thanks!

hehe thanks a bunch and welcome back to the forums yoga-chi

...Jodi, the banana eating buddhist

well today is the end of the first week of commuting with my fella and i cant say strongly enough i cant wait for the next 3 weeks to be over till he can buy another car lol



im wondering if the extra stress , less sleep, might have triggered this latest episode of shingles as ive been like a cat on a hot tin roof this week

not to mention my boss told me last week hes thinking of selling the business which leaves me ...????? but yay yesterday he told me the deal fell through but now im left with this uneasy feeling about what about the next time .. i need to be more prepared in case i lose my job so i guess this was a wake up slap in the face .. im utterly unprepared in the event of an emergency or otherwise loss of income

my financial health needs some work i make pretty good money i think .. but i have absolutely zilch in savings and too much o/s credit at the moment .. 1 student loan for $7000 one car loan for $15000 and i owe my parents still about $50k and if i lose work then all my payments come to a grinding halt

im considering seeing a financial advisor while im still making money at the moment to see what his suggestions are

...Jodi, the banana eating buddhist




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What do you do Jodi - did you say accounting or taxes ?

yep accounting and taxes for a private company that builds scuba gear lol ... ive always worked in private sector except for a near 5 year stint with an accountant i did 3 years of massage therapy college but have yet to realize my dream of practicing... i could get a job in some fluffy spa but the perfumes and stuff would finish me off for certain and its wayyyyyy to costly to start up a private practice in a city location .. for now i wo rk on friends/family and friends of friends in my home or theirs .. but its truly what i wish i was doing !

...Jodi, the banana eating buddhist

So you do small business taxes, is that right?


Cuz it seems there would be a lot of call for that kind of thing - have you ever thought about doing it as a small business of your own?

I know a few small business owners who complain about the difficulty of finding someone to look after their accounts and taxes because they don't need someone full time, only a several hours a month. But they're required to know a lot about bookkeeping to maintain all the wcb, gst, pst, etc things up to date and it's exhausting for them.

As for massage - I don't know about where you live, but there are quite a few therapists of all kinds who share rooms with each other for a smallish fee. That way they have all the facilities ready for them and only pay for the space for as many hours as they need it.

I'm sending a pm to you.

It takes 3 years to become a massage therapist? How about just using essential oils and pure oils like almond, avocado, etc.? There are chiropractors that have massage therapy in their office, you can work under their license, or maybe just rent a room and have your own business.

There is someone that I met from this board that actually lives in Portland, and she does massage therapy as her own business with no store front. She has celebrities, and high profile people that when they come to town, they call her and she gets paid starting at $90.00 an hour. She actually has a little bio in Doug Grahams book 80/10/10 her name is Lori Williamson.

I wonder if I'll see her again, now that I'm back here? I'll have to find time to get to a local raw pot luck again. They had really good ones here.

Love,
Prism

yep up in canada here its 5000 hours of acedemics .. you can do a spa therapy course wich is like 10 months but you cant treat anyone with injuries by law or you can get sued by the massage association ... this whole association is fraugt with all sorts of mumbo jumbo .. my insurance alone to private practice is $400 a MONTH ! i know it doesnt sound like much but when you tack in all the other overhead it gets to be a bit overwhelming if you just jump in with no customers at teh door

true i could wowrk at someone elses clinic but the ones i talked to wanted to set the price and take a percentage and it wasnt any 90$ an hour ..more like 50-60 .. then if they take up to 50% ..then i minus my costs etc ... its actually less then what imake accounting lol

the other drawback is wowrking in clinic our medical services plan pays the therapist back for the work ..so client comes in .. gets work done .. MSP pays me ..

the problem is MSP doesnt payback very quickly ...you have to submit your totals once a month and then 90 days later you get a cheque back ... and waiting 4 months to me to get paid just isnt appealing at all !

of course they dont tell you things like this when you first start the classes which is a good lesson to learn .. RESEARCH YOUR FIELD BEFORE YOU EDUCATE LOL !!

and again there are plusses and minus .. ups and downs to everythng .. just the negatives outweight the positives for ME at the moment .. maybe next year when im a bit more settled

i live in a very small community and really dont want to commute ..so im happy at the moment doing people in my home or neighboring homes

...Jodi, the banana eating buddhist




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Yes, I have heard that it is hard to get started as a massage therapist and to make a living doing it. I also heard that the average number of years that a therapist sticks with it is 5 years. I think it can be very physically exhausting work, is that true?

yep Karen its quite true but one of the things they really stressed in the school was the self care above everything else but yep it can be tiring ..especially if you are not feeling well on a particular day ..that will be the day you get 6 clients in 8 hours lol

one time in clinic where we had to work full shifts for practice ..i felt a brutal headache migraine coming on and that particular clinic manager that day was a bit of a cow and she said too bad .. you cant just cancel your appointments this is the real world

WELL ! in the REAL world i would have phoned all the appointments and told them i was under the wether and honestly would you want someone sick working on you??? that day i suffered though 7 massages ... i thoought the whole incident was redicoulous and i complained to the head of the school to no avail but i still felt i needed to say something ! i ended up having to take 3 days off sick and missed an exam as i couldnt get out of bed without throwing up ..

i had to take the exam over at another time and they tried to charge me for it (they charge for missed exams) and i raised holy hell on them that they wouldnt see another penny of my money as it was their fault i was off sick ..had i gone home the first morning and rested i would have been fine and diverted a wohle episode of migraine lol

...Jodi, the banana eating buddhist

They do seem to go overboard with the hours and work put in for massage therapy up there! Well..it's satisfying for you I'm sure you got thru it and it wasn't easy..so it makes it all the better since you can look back on it!

I also want to work where it's easier on me..I've decided I'd just really love to work between the hours of noon to 7 pm..but with doing childcare I don't know about being able to keep those hours or if I'd get the couple kids I needed. I probably could find home health care easier for that time slot. I'm going to post on craigslist for both..see what comes up.

Enjoy your Rawsome Day today! I'm going to go visit my cousin and have long soak in her jacuzzi and eat the grapes I picked and have a nice catch up chat!

Love,
Prism

yea its a bit overboard im sure they could shave off a good 1000 hours of fluff off the course load but hey dont we all say .. if i was in charge i could do it better lol !!!

...Jodi, the banana eating buddhist

I wonder if that's just to increase tuition profits, Jodi.



The DTCM I see for CranioSacral told me that since she got her DTCM, the course hours have increased, thereby adding a year to the tuition. The Int. College of TCM in Vancouver only offers a minimum of information on their website, but tuition for the first year (of 3-5 years) is over $8000, which doesn't include texts, supplies and required excursions.

An RMT told me that course increased by one year since she got her certification, and that it had increased a year just before she entered the WCMT .

I wonder if the fluffing of requirements isn't part of private college m.o.

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