zzzzzzzzzzz

z is the most humble letter

z lets all the other letters go first

z is for zero

z is for zoro

z is for zipper - you zip up, and you zip down, and you zip all around town

z is for zen

"Zen emphasizes experiential Wisdom in the attainment of enlightenment."

z is for xenophobia

"Xenophobia is defined as the hatred or fear of foreigners or strangers or of their politics or culture."

the funny thing about z is that it is actually the most powerful letter of all

why is z so powerful?

let me tell you

z is the most powerful letter because it is the sign of the zig zag

to zig and to zag is to walk the path of the pivot through the wrath of god

z is for sleep

zzzzzzzzzzzzz

z is for bee

as in buzzzzzzzz

z

what more is there to z?

zed

its a lightning bolt
upside down
whitish blue too
and purple

Cute, isn't it also a very high scoring letter in scrabble like q,and x?

Zebra. With the zigzaggery stripes. Zipping across the grassland. Zany zebra, no zoo for you!

z is for zzeeelicious!

as in

you are all so zzeeelicious!

zank you

zooobeeedooobeeedooo !

...Jodi, the banana eating buddhist

zaabeedaabeedaa !

zerp zerp zoip

zinkers

zany zebra

zacharious

Zechariah

zig zag bump shimmy turns and bends send:

[en.wikipedia.org]

this is my path

the cancer bull shiitake

the dogma

so much pain

my knowledge is so potent

yay!

i know who i am

kinda

maybe

or

something

perhaps

sorta

zoinks

does desire to alleviate pain and suffering induce the creation of that pain and suffering?

there is pain and suffering, period

there always will be, and always was, and always is

unless of course, one is timeless

without time

but even here and now pain may be felt

yes but the pain is knowin to be a blessing in disguise

fook blessings in disguises

why why?

because that is simply the best way to reveal the true nature of reality

boom boom boom go the fireworks

god wants us to know god

to know is to be

to some degree

i don't know

maybe

spiritual machines of an organic nature

we arise and grow

we flower

we bloom

we are cared for

we are crafted

we are drafted

we are asked to serve

if we fall we are caught

if we call we are coached

we are eternal conscious creators

maybe

maybe

perhaps

we reincarnate

so that we may learn

so that we may experience

we may have joy

we may have peace

pain and anger

all of it

so that we may know what may be known

to know is to experience

to know is to feel

to feel is to be alive

to feel is to be real

upon death

after death

we may see a greater picture

not necessarily the full picture

but a greater picture

god speaks to us through the language we already know

therefore the afterlife is a different experience for everyone

in the afterlife we

pausing

pausing

do i get too deep?

do i really want to know?

do i want to be surprised?

yes

i like surprises

especially good ones

and god is good yes?

i am good

so god is good

what then is hell?

every human is both good and bad and those words are somewhat meaningless

god is god

neither good or bad

simply god

we are organic

we bubble up in the matrix of existence

after

after

we many

we may one day choose to dissipate

to disappear completely into the nothing

to disappear completely is the real death

the physical death is not the real death

we have free will

free will governs

we may exist, in some form or another, for as long as we choose

eternity is a long time

think about it

not just gazzillions and bazzillions of years, but much much more, so much more that it is just beyond words. infinity is a word, but few can really grasp the power of it. infinity is so big, so long, so forever, so far, so so so so so , you see, words cannot touch it. it's untouchable. nothing can touch it

i am nothing



but how do i know im not just telling myself what i may want to hear?

good question

pain and suffering...

"because that is simply the best way to reveal the true nature of reality"

so

ok

i am the true nature of reality

i am the nature of reality

reality is nature

everything is nature

my laptop is nature

the fridge and the hammer are nature

everything is nature

all things organic

all things "artificial"

tis all nature

Nature

nAtUrE

nature

nature

just

nature

the nature of nature is nature

naturally

while there is order

there is also a randomness to it all

i first spelled randm like that randm

than removed the m and spelled it as random

where did that first "misspelling" come from?

the misspelling has no origin

the misspelling has no cause

the misspelling simmply occurs

randomness simply occurs

there are organisms within organisms within organisms?

my cells are conscious creators?

my cells are me

quandary

this stuff is deep

and do i really want to know

the veil is being lifted

am i done playing

?

the fractal-superorganismic nature of existence.

yes there are gods that cannot be seen, in the physical sense

we can incarnate as any kind of system

i can be a cloud

i can be a mouse

i can be a kidney cell

i can be a prison cell

i can be a shoe

i can be a speck of dust

i can be a planet, for example gaia

i can be any system

god is a system of systems?

who is talking

the talking is felt

who feels who?

when feeling is lost, then we are one

we are one

we can

eh ehm

do not state as fact that which ye do not know as fact

employ question marks and words like maybe and may and perhaps and such to indicate the non knowing

because truly, do to the endless balancing act

the complete picture, can never fully be seen by any one being

only god can see the full picture

and god is the combination of all of our eyes

all of our perspectives throughout all of eternity

pain and suffering is part of the orientation process

once well oriented, pain and suffering are not

if i incarnate as a deer, may i not feel pain when a hunter shoots me?

you can choose how to incarnate as a dear

should i say you or i or we or wonder

can i incarnate as a deer and still be not a naive being?

yes!

some animals are truly wise and ancient spirits, here sometimes to serve us and watch over us

some animals are also naive and unlearned, and they are part of the organic bubbling up of conscious creators, and they may

hmmmm

animals as cells in gaia

animals who experience pain

how am i different from a naive deer?

i have been in existence for longer than the deer.

perhaps. or not

perhaps the conscious creator within the deer, in the previous afterlife experience, perhaps it chose to become naive again so as to experience the fullness of being the deer, the fullness of the deer experience.

why would i ever want to go through the pain and suffering orientation process again?

good question

all existence is a blur of crystal clarity

god is a wordsmith

words are sounds are colors are sounds are words

emotions are vibrations

vibrations are sounds are colors are sounds are words

vibration

Sometimes, I wonder what your on jono, and why you aren't sharing <3 hehehe j/k...whatever it is though, you sure seem to have allot of energy! I cannot even keep up with you,lol... must be eating tons of fruit like durian,lol

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Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail through the changing ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?

Sometimes... I wonder if I will ever stop wondering

Thanks Curator.

It's interesting.

As a kid I was totally nuts.

My crew in elementary school, about 3 or 4 of us... we called ourselves "the mentals"... and we bounced all over the place...

Somehow, that nuttiness got seemingly beaten out of me by the pain and struggles of life. By highschool and throughout highschool, I was not so joyful, and not so inquisitive. I never attended a college party. I became a bit zombified. Sure, I had plenty of moments of hyper creativity and joy, but boy was I a sad soul. Pathetic, I was.

But I persevered.

I pushed onward.

And Noward.

And now her I am.

Here I am

now her I am

now her I am

all her's

better grab it while it's hot

or not

whatever

i have no desires even tho i do

i have no wants even tho i do

money is ATP is a carrier of energy allowing indirect exchange of consiousness love energy nothing math, whatever it is that forms the nothing that forms everything.

food and shelter and service

it's all about balance

discipline fits in

and manifestation

maybe

something

sometimes

yeah

yep

uh huh

ok

yeah

z is for zulu

[en.wikipedia.org]

"Zulu (Zulu: isiZulu) is the language of the Zulu people with about 10 million speakers, the vast majority (over 95%) of whom live in South Africa."

Language is so amazing, but not really.

Language

Culture

How many planets and how many cultures and how much beauty and awe-inspiring suchness must exist in the expanse of infinity?

How could one ever see it all? Be it all? Impossible!

I have done the impossible.

I can see that I have already seen even that which I have yet to see.

So what do I do now?

Simply

that words simply feels weird

complexly

complexly be

I'm simply being complexity being simplicity.

Boom

bang

zoom

zang

zuh

clarity

for anyone reading along

the following line was un "finished" (is anything ever really "finished"

nothing is ever finished

nothing is being ever-finished

the balancing of the equations. the nothing is reconciled for ever and ever and ever.

there is no such thing as nothing

what is a "thing"

all "things" are immersed in all "things"

anyway, a line i wrote above

"once well oriented, pain and suffering are not "

it was "unfinished"... i just moved on through the flow

ill add some dots: "once well oriented, pain and suffering are not... "

as we offer a hand we are offered a hand

when we get to the top

then

then

then

we dive into the ocean of eternity

no more dots

my thumb tingles

my left thumb

scratchy scratch

"Scratch is an educational programming language"
[en.wikipedia.org]

"An educational programming language is a programming language that is designed primarily as a learning instrument and not so much as a tool for writing real-world application programs."
[en.wikipedia.org]

God is a learning instrument

God is learning about god

God is getting to know god

God is knowing god by being god getting to know god

"We are a way for the cosmos to know itself"

God knows god

God doesn't know god

God knows nothing

god knows no "things"

god knows there are no "things"

the only thing that is truly a thing, is god

god is god

god is

god

go

g

whiz

herz

hiz and herz

to know me is to be me

god wants to be known

to be seen

i see you god

*waves*

*blows kisses*

waits and wonders

hopes

what is hope?

i have heard of people not using certain words such as "hope" and "hate" and "I"..

I can see the value in experimenting like that, and reformatting the spychology to see things differently.

i think there is plenty of room for hope

i welcome all words

doesn't mean i need to use all of them all the time

words

words

w
o
r
d
s

"I can see that I have already seen even that which I have yet to see. "

this is an important pretzel right here.

maybe the final pretzel?

is there a final pretzel?

nothing is ever-finished

"I can see that I have already seen even that which I have yet to see. "

god

432AM

god

god

from zeh journal...

life and journal are merged now adays

now a daze

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i'm being guided as i guide myself

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i guid myself to god

guid

wow

i guide myself to god

just

whoa

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ultra non linearaity

math is a way to describe the relationships between "things"

there are no "things"

the only "thing" is god

the only thing is god

there is no final question

there is no final answer

there is only god

simply

complexly

g
o
d

god

maybe

p
e
r
h
a
p
s

possibly probably potentially

@#$%& pants

that's it

that's it ladies and gentlement

gentle meat

gentlemen

gentle man

i am a gentle man

um

yeah

the final guestion is not a question, and the answer is @#$%& pants

got that?

@#$%& pants!

poo pee pants!

@#$%& pants

question guestion

guest i on

guess what

what?

chicken butt

that's it! I found it!

chicken butt and @#$%& pants

so sad

so true

so silly

pathetic really

god is a pathetic joke

god is retard

i love pathetic jokes

i love retards

i am a pathetic joke of a retard

done

the pathetic joke of a retard is the funniest joke of all

now laugh

i dare you

all things in balance